Maui's magical sunset and moon rise

This is how it all started...

and it looked all normal...

oeps... We are Maui...

 

 

 

Nothing is normal here...
suddenly this was above me...

 

 

 

 

in front of me

 

 

 

next to me on the right

 

 

   

on the left

 

 

straight


 

  

in front

 

 

 

behind


Abundance comes in the most magical ways...
no way we can make this happen with our physical mind,
let your SELF gently be hold by your own God's Self,
I AM...
What you see outside, is a reflection of what's INSIDE...


love Tamara rainbow,
www.rainbowsheart.com


 

 

 

 

Heart blowing

This is a painting that is symbol for PASSION, HEART and FAITH

 

                                

I talked the other day over making decisions and it was amazing to see a total new viewpoint with the Help of my teacher–mom Mama-P.

I’ll try to explain, because I am still myself grasping it…maybe there are still some holes in it…
I mean, it might be Belgian that saying or it is a rainbow-saying…
Holes in it means, I might not get it truly yet…

Ok here we go:

There is never one decision to make, she explained me.
Putting two possibilities in front of you is entering the duality world.
It is making yourself miserable, really.
The word decision comes from the CIDE-words and you find that in homicide, suicide…it is killing.

So actually you have to KILL one option and choose the other possibility.
And that is what gives us a feeling of heaviness.
Deciding out of logic is a matter of the MIND and not of the HEART.

You just move with what you want and that brings you in alignment with your HEART.
The wanting that comes into your feelings is a result of BEING the one you ARE.
Automatically possibilities will present itself as result of the BEING and wanting.
You are simply following your heart.
No need to kill any possibilities in order to choose the other one. You just tune in of what you want and what is in alignment with that your heart and you just DO.
You come from the place of IAM, and the being that KNOWS what she wants.
This choosing comes from a peaceful place, because the HEART knows what it wants.
There are no problems or difficulties on the level of the heart.

No stress of choosing, just being in the now and being and doing when it presents itself…
Not trying to analyze with your mind what the right decision is.
Not trying to compare with what was yesterday, because really you from yesterday is gone.
Yesterday are dead bodies…past…

So haha LOL J…yesterday I had a situation where I needed to change my mind and tell the person I made a mistake. I was approaching it with my mind how I was acting in situations like that in the past.
I had sweat in my hands, I was scared…only because I compared with the past and to the Identity I was then. I was in fear. I was identifying myself in the now with an old identity.
When I became aware of what I was doing, I could choose again and BE the one with a new IDENTITY.
I could choose to be the fearless one…J

So each new moment we are a new person, a new identity…

 

When you start living from your heart, you never compare with past nor future.
It never occurs to you anything is wrong. There are no regrets, ever.
At the level of the MIND you analyze ‘decisions’. It is as you have an accountant sheet on your lab evaluating if you made the right or wrong decision. You will always have regret on the level of the mind.
It is only the mind that sees pro’s and contra’s.

The HEART sees only pro’s.

So I can only say…be the one you want to be and the wanting shall appear natural in your heart and then just do what comes in front of you to do….
Drop the mind…(am especially saying that to myself J) or the mind will just drop...and be the servant of your HEART.

Love tamara rainbow
www.rainbowsheart.com

Poppies, RIP

 

Let me just lay and rest in a field of poppy flowers....

Did you see how my MIND took me on a roller coaster of suffering yesterday?

All of what I was talking about was MIND-talk, analytic mind chatter that pushed me in a circle of confusion and more confusion.

Now you see how to NOT to do it….
Tonight I give myself a FREE evening…no mind, no thinking, no analyzing…just BEING in the moment and feel what I want each new moment.
And from that feeling I will choose for me in true Self-love.
The past is gone already…here and now, my fingers are typing...what do I want?
Eating maybe…watching a movie?

Be still…

maybe think back on wonderful little Pinky (see other blogs. Pinky is a baby turtle) this morning…in the ocean…I can bring her back…so sweet, so alive…

Rest, peace, love…
And give and let  myself what I really love…

 

Poppy flowers are…

a life of Red intensity…

They live 100 years in one day…
the 100 years, the one day
is
now…

What they want
and ARE

IS

BEING RED…

and alive,
so alive...
for living
life!

I go and lay down already,
R.I.P to my MIND...:)

Love Tamara rainbow
www.rainbowsheart.com

Hakuna matata! (No worries)

For all those people that have to make decisions or think they have to make decisions.

Here my experience…

 I had to make one today and I have a tendency to THINK I made the wrong one, after I made it.
 I can blame it because in astrology my mars is in Libra and therefore I weight things of all the time…until the END of time. (really annoying)

It might be because of Libra, or it might be just a leftover from some insecurity from the past somewhere.

So yes often I believe that I make the wrong decisions and I can’t relax anymore into the flow I earlier saw and felt.
I am a CRACK (we say in Belgium, as meaning being really good at something) in flowing and acting and doing what I feel comes from my inner Source. I don’t think about it and just do it…and that’s why I am in Hawaii, that’s why I swim with dolphins and turtles far in the Ocean, that’s why I dare to do my art, that’s why bought a home when I was 18, sold my home when I was 21, bought another one a day later, sold it a year later, bought another one,>>>>etc…

In Belgium we would say I am a ‘dare-duvel’. I dare to go for it!

I see it as a quality, because I have no fear when I do things like that. And again in astrology language it can be because I am a Sagittarius and have an adventurous nature. If I follow who I am, I just follow what comes on my path and it all works out. When I am in this magical energy miracles happen.

When I let the Libra in Mars have her say about it all, I am in trouble.
Then I start weighing things of and we get in trouble.
And discernment is a good thing I know that, because the Sagittarius too would get in some trouble sometimes…(does she? Or is that The Libra in Mars now that says this and wants to play it more save)
The Sagittarius in me laughs, as if there is something that is ever save? There is nothing to control.

The ’worrier’(=Miss Libra) in me needs to”Relax!”
The warrior (=The Sagittarius) in me, knows all is well and GOES FOR IT!

“So I guess I made my decision and we are going for it”; says Mister Sagittarius.
I saw in the past that although Miss Libra comes and says her say, Mister Sagittarius ignores her, really. Then she shouts a little harder with this thin loud annoying voice of her; “BUT, but….what if!”

Mister Sagittarius rolls his eyes up. He stands there with his band in his hair like a cool warrior…
TRUSTING that WE felt it right!
He wants Miss. Libra to feel it too.
Can’t you feel it? Where are your intuitive skills, I thought you were a woman?”
Oh jee you can compare it a little with the stereotypical movie of Indiana Jones; where he has to deal with the lady…until she gives it up to be a lady and just has to go with the adventure of GOD.
Haaa it is time that the lady Libra in me gives it up, and gives up her spoiled-ness…one of her things is she needs windows in her home all around her, all the time. Otherwise she feels a little boxed.
Mister Sagittarius can’t deal with it and just repeats; “Stop it!” You want windows, well just go and sit in your car, there you go; you have windows all around. Go to the beach and pretend you have windows all around you, there you go; you have windows….
Miss Libra put her nose in the air; “This savage man doesn’t know how to deal with a lady, pft…”
He doesn’t see how sensitive I am.”

I can tell you this went on the whole afternoon in MY HEAD.
Both of them right there in my head…It drives me nuts!
And I didn’t know how to stop it.
haaa  bUT!!!
At the end of the movie they fall in love, right. And you know I experienced in the past that that is always the case. I think they just do it because it is a game… J and they like it.
I don’t like this mind-game at all.
And then the only solution I have and do is the Byron Katie work and ask myself ‘Is it true?”

So what’s the point here what is the argument, anyway?

Ok I get that the sentence is;
‘I made the wrong decision’ (= I just rented another apartment but with less windows)

Is that true?
YES
Can you absolutely know it is true?
NO
How do I feel when I believe that thought.
Oh my God, it drives me nuts. Insane. Crazy. I don’t feel safe.etc…
How would you feel if you can’t think that thought.
Oh then I am cool, than I know I am going into the flow, of what God presented in front of me.
It doesn’t really matter…which decision here. Either one is good. It doesn’t matter. I am not my decisions anyway. Nothing at the outside is important for how I feel at the inside. So either one is great.

So now I do the turnarounds….
I didn’t make the wrong decision.
3 examples…well 1)because it just came so perfect all together in the flow. Like I could not look next to it, as God was saying Joehoe, this is the way to go…
2) It would live cheaper and so more abundant and I feel I need that feeling, it will do me good to create more abundance
3) it’s at a friend’s place and the energy will be awesome
4)I can do my own laundry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!( I couldn’t do this in my current place)
5)I can be the light
6) I can go more to the beach and on adventure because it is not so expensive..
7)It’s temporarily because I love to be free and go….

Ok I am there already…normally 3 examples…

 

HAAAAAAAAAAA instead of the turn around ‘I didn’t make a wrong decision’
What about this turn around I MADE THE RIGHT decision!!!!!
Oh my God, that feels so much truer than I didn’t make a wrong decision!!!
It is TRUSTING me, that’s what it is all about!!!
Miss Libra…discernment is good until you make it into worries… J says Mister Sagittarius gently
and he takes her in her arms… but maybe Mister sagg is to fast in his decision making....:) ;says Miss Libra.
"Haaaa still don't know now...;she sighs.
"I do"; says Mister sagittarius; "What if nothing is wrong?"
Mama-P. taught me that...NOTHING IS EVER WRONG. Your journey is always RIGHT.

And they sing:

HAKUNA MATATA!
and DANCE!!!!
HAKUNA MATATA!

“Maybe we should dance a folk dance”
“No I feel we just need to rock…”
“Really are you sure?”
“Are we making the right decision about this dance?”

Hakuna matata!
HAKUNA MATATA!!!!!!!!

Love Tamara rainbow
www.rainbowsheart.com

I am belgian, Hawaiian and American all in ONE..:)

It might be getting boring to you but I get so extremely happy lately… my life is so beautiful. I am so happy with it. I keep on mentioning to have fallen with my butt in the butter, but I really did.(Belgian expression for good luck) I just heard from some people that met me (to see my art) that they loved this expression and start using it also! The husband told me this: He said to his wife; “Didn’t you fell with your butt in the butter, honey!” And then he was referring to himself…  haha LOL ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Anyway I feel very blessed to live here in Hawaii. Now I am living on Maui and I saw all the islands already, except of the Native Hawaiian one…Ni’ihau. In always wanted to be called a local, wanted to have a feeling of belonging and now after so much longing; I feel I kind of am. Funny thing is that now i am I came to see that that is not who I really am. I am, pure divine energy and all the rest…is not important,really. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am Belgian, Hawaiian, American..my name is Tamara and here they call me rainbow….and all of these things are fun, but it is not who I really am. Who I really am is source energy; it is the one that never dies. And once you come to that clear realization all the rest falls away. But at the same moment, I start loving to play in this game, because it is without attachment anymore; i know who I really am................>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> I AM and that is perfect…that is never changeable…what is changeable is…my body, my mind, my possessions, countries, nations, houses, fathers, children, friends… Accepting life as it is= CHANGE ; moves us so easily through life. It becomes a play, a game and what for a game! I came to see that life, God is very very kind. When life isn’t kind it is not because of the God part in us, but mostly it is because of the thoughts we have about existence..................................................................................................................................................................... I really believe I fell in love with me for the first time in my life.>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Truly . I love to be with me, I love the things I do. I love the life I have. I love the person I became and am. I am of course. And that is infinite. But the person I am right now in this moment in my life, well she is pretty cool, loving and courageous.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- And you know what; it would be great for someone to be able to share that with me. And I get to be THAT ONE!!!!! All the time! And it is pretty amazing. I feel so full lately, so whole. There is nothing that I want to fill myself up with then only with myself. No person, no-thing. I am. And I am happy. This morning I was wondering...waaaw it is pretty awesome to do the things I do, to think the things I think, to create the things I create, and to love the things I love….......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

............................................................................................................................................................................... I really am embodying that saying from Rumi: “Let yourself be, silently drown by the gently pull of what you really love. And that is me! And Mama P. And my art. And all my dear dear friends. The dolphins and the turtles. Hawaii. My art supplies My paintings< My car, Rockie .......................................................................................................

......................................................................................................... My body, yes my body who would have thought that ever…my body is so strong I can swim anywhere without getting tired. I love my smile, when I feel am smiling… I love the way I am dedicated to my friends, ................................................................................................................. It is weird…to do this…to write all these things… My past is my past and I was just the opposite… extremely not loving myself. and now I am this. It feels GREAT! I can tell you… ........................................................................................................

.............................................................................................................. I was looking to my home today and all the things that lay in order and out of order and nobody here to tell me I should put it different or do something else…that was such a good feeling. And then thinking that I decide to wake up when I wake up and run as long and far as I want, as less as I want. If I want. And then I just go with my car on an adventure and nobody to tell me where to go then only to follow my heart… I take a nap when I want, I paint when I want and nobody to tell me I can’t. Oh my…I LOVE IT! I can see sunsets every night If I want and I am the master of my life. I am, truly. I don’t feel anyone has to complete me. I am complete and so full lo life. So FULL of me  haha before that would be a curse and you had to hide and be ashamed..well I did… .......................................................................................................

........................................................................................................................ I never felt so full of SELF as now. I had times in the past that I was scared to be with me…that is definite OVER…Oh my GOD! I LOVE TO BE WITH ME! I long to be with me, to be alone with me...i am never alone. And that all because I have found me… If people want to cling, I am gone already. Don’t tell anyone what I am doing the next moment..because I love to be with me. Woeha!!! The true me…I AM… it is so magnificent. All the rest is a magical play and what are we going to play, right? Up to us, we are master of our own lives! The lady bug on my car this morning showed me, how much I can love myself… My old self would ask for permission. Would think it was selfish to ask something, had to make herself small so she wasn’t too much,……all that BLOW AWAY WITH THE WIND…..  ................................................................................................................

...................................................................................................... The lady bug , called ‘lieve heersbeestje” literally translated as… loving ruling animal… it is a good sign in Belgium, it means ‘GOOD LUCK’. Now I think about it, we have a lot of good signs, like stepping in shit is one, breaking glass is another one…you would think that those Belgians would do everything just the be opposite of what other countries do..because stepping in poop and breaking glass isn’t always good in other countries, but it is in Belgium!!! Now I have the 3 nationalities, Belgian, Hawaiian and American I will take all the good sayings of each nationality and drop all the rest… Hihi…the clever oppurtunitist……..>>>>>>>>>me<<<<<< ..........................................................................................I am so sorry blogger is down again, and i can't share with you a good quality spacious blog. IT IS NOT IN MY CONTROL..:)I tried to post as many pics between it, so you get that so needed loving space..") Hope you enjoyed it anyway.....the pics of my car are from the lady bug admiring my name, my art, my my my.....try to find her, it brings GOOD LUCK!!!!!! (they say in Belgium).................................................................................................................................................................. love tamara rainbow www.rainbowsheart.com

Rainbow smiles

 

Today I played with colors…it brings water in my mouth. I feel so happy when I see blue, fuchsia, yellow and purple…
Painting is my joy, it is a process of the right colors in the right spot to create the depth I am feeling within my own being and within the being of the painting.

The painting and I become one.
I am joy, happiness and COLOR!

I vibrate with colors; that’s why I live in Hawaii probably. Here the colors are so vibrant; it never really gets grey as in Belgium. The ocean is turquoise blue, the sky is indigo blue, the flowers are red, yellow, fuchsia, purple, white,…Oh my god what a game of vibrancy and a joyful outburst of life!
‘I fell with my butt in the butter’(Belgian saying for having good luck) living in Hawaii!

I love to be in the ocean and there too I enjoy the colors so much. The coral and fish are smiling to me with their abundant dance of colors. The sunrays slowly sink through the always moving water and color the reef in a fertile green and yellow. Sometimes it even lights up pink and purple.

What I love the most is when the sunrays make rainbows on the bottom of the ocean, it is so magnificent!
And then we didn’t talk about the fish yet. It feels like Halloween or carnival in the depth of the ocean.
You can find the most amazing colored fish here.
I am so in love with the ocean. This morning I saw fish changing their colors from black to yellow/blue; just like that. I tried it myself, but I stayed this white nutcase…J Oh my, that is something…
Also I saw a fish this morning that first was colored with a pattern of sand and stones and suddenly changed in greenish blue. The first color was its camouflage jacket he put on when I swam by. He kind of pretended he was dead! Really, he laid on its side when I passed him and when I came closer, he just didn’t move. I thought he was dead or needed help.
This brave fish didn’t know I am this kind of ‘ridiculous’ crazy vegetarian sometimes that wants to save everything that is called animal…J
And so as a good Samaritan I went closer to see if I could help it and even dove towards it, what scared the s..t out of him…and ZOEF he changed colors and disappeared in an instant…waaw that was something…J He changed colors, ha…

I am surrounded by color, my life is color. I love color so intensely. That’s why I kind of ended up with my nickname rainbow.
I am in love with colors. Really true…

In Belgium I was always wearing the most colorful clothes. Here in Hawaii I hardly wear clothes…J

But I love colorful clothes that MATCH of course…. J

 

Colors are playful! Colors are fun! Colors are the joy of life!

Yellow and red playing a game, oeps there orange appears joyFULLY…
Green embraces blue and yellow and makes a slide on the paper,
“Me too I want to play!”
Red jumps on blue and gets the overhand and brown gets born.
Blue tries to move out of red’s upper hand and tosses her playfully on the ground…
purple appears!

White and black looking from the side line…we don’t want to mess with your game guys.
Oh you can come and play with us, so we can make it darker or lighter sometimes….
All playing together is an never ending game of JOY….

Rainbow smiles…

 

Love tamara rainbow
www.rainbowsheart.com

Forget about it!

The energy, the mandala of GOLD...the pure existence within...IAM

 

Look around you...when you ask God answers, you get them always.

It is in co-creation with God, that part of us that is undying, the ‘Iam’ state that talks through us to us in the most amazing ways.

 

Ask and it is given. It is true, but I have realized that that happens to a certain degree. The purpose of life, of all life is to wake up to your TRUE Self.

Your true being and no-being…. J

Really… if you surrender to the STILNESS within, you come in a space of eternal joy.
It is the place of you that is that part that never dies. I call it sometimes the “IAM’ state.

Or my Soul, my Source…etc…so many words for something that is NOTHING really. J

It is the flame behind life. It is mana, tao, spirit, chi…

 

All of life turns around that… CORE existence…
It is that part of God that is you. All what has to do with temporarily circumstance are an expression or vehicle of that undying part, but it is not you.
So body and mind is not you… it is a temporally expression of something you choose to be. J

So whoever you are…your body, your life…it is who you CHOOSE to be now in this life!
Isn’t that a wonder? An amazing gift!

In this life time I am Tamara, or Rainbow...but I am neither Tamara nor Rainbow really.

There is a piece of me that watches this body that is seen by others and called Tamara or rainbow.
The watcher is my God’s self…when I come there and see the game of life, I can start playing and have fun. Who I am being is what will appear in my outside world…

Let’s have fun! Let’s laugh and play! Let’s relax!(as Mama-P would say)

When I am in the place of my true Self I am openness, stillness, abundance, freedom, love,…

I am awareness, I am RICH!

Things come and go. Relationships come and go. Our bodies come and go. Our minds come and go.

 You can have all what you want, if you are not aware of whom you really are; you are POOR.

What is more important, right?

IAM.

Life is about awareness…

 

I AM.

It is the only place where you will feel safe.  ‘I am’ is the part that is God. Not that your body isn’t God, but you get what I am saying. It is that part that is always you and always be you, life times after life times changing from a woman to a man, from a man to a woman.
Travelling to another Earth maybe?
 We might reincarnate in a mermaid, or a gnome; a dolphin or a bear.

WHO knows?

I don’t know anything…

What I do know is that all what happens in my life is to make me more and more aware of whom I really am. I know for sure that that is everybody’s purpose in life. All the other life purposes that our egos try to make up (to feel somewhere important) are purposes that are changeable.

The life purpose I am talking about is the core of the Universe, is the core of being; is life itself.

Regularly your God’s self brings situations to you so you can choose to be more of who you really are.
It are amazing opportunities of reunion with your true self. Well, reunion is a not correct word, because the UNION is always there. It is our thoughts that let us believe we are separated from who we really are.

As much these lessons are sometimes ‘pain in the butt’ things, I see now directly they are FOR us and never against us. It are opportunities of growth.

So here I was going through a seemly harsh lesson. I took the lesson personal and I knew that as long I had charge with the situation, I had to question my thoughts (Byron Katie works is excellent for that) so truth could come forward.
I also ask-and usually I do that before I run-some deeper clarity around the situation at hand.
I open myself then to my Gods self to let things come to me.

Those messages can come through various mediums. Radio, television, people, friends, nature, insights, feelings, emotions,…It can come from anywhere. It always comes… J

So here I am feeling somebody SHOULD pay me back.

My mind goes Nananaa….should, should, should….from anger to not understanding, to anger, to trying to understand, to sadness….oh well …it is all just SUFFERING really!
Still with those thoughts into my energy field; but also with the willingness to change…I ran into…

 a chicken with a whole bunch of little chicks….

“Ooh, how cute”; I thought. J
They must have been just born, because they were little small balls on two little sticks… some yellow, some black… J

How CUTE, cute, cute!!!!

They tried to get of the path in the bushes while I was admiring them with a sweetness so intense, that I didn’t have a lot of eyes for mama Chicken… all my loving attention went to the baby chicks…J

Until …

Mama chicken decided to chase me away from her adorable off spring.

She attacked my ankles.
Wooow….

You had to see me jumping…funny sight… J

Now black mama was following me with her wings spread…

“Don’t you dare!” she was letting me know.

My pace shifted suddenly much faster, why would that be…J
I came at the boat ramp and I was still smiling…
People who were waiting to go in the boats smiled back to me…
Hopefully they didn’t see me jumping and being chased by mama chicken…

J

I just had to laugh and in that laughter I saw the truth coming to the surface…

The vibration I was holding; “I want my money back” was a low vibration that was linked to the words: protection, attack, possession, lack,…waaaw…
All what mama chicken was showing me…J

wow…

I could see that the me that is ‘IAM’ was in faith and trust that what belongs to me is with me. Otherwise it isn’t.

My “Iam’ state didn’t even want to limit itself with just focusing on a small part of the Universe.
My “Iam’ wanted to be open to ALL abundance of the entire Universe…

AND

I saw it was not even my business! I was in God’s business.
It is not of my business if I get my money back.
We think sometimes we have a say and control over our lives, but that is a big illusion.
Our lives are lead by our undying part, our ‘IAM’ or God’s self and it isn’t always in alignment with our body/mind wishes, really.

Relax in faith is the only thing we can do….

Mmmm… I was thinking and smiling while I was running further;

 “I am really cleaning my s..t out and it feels good!” I was thinking and feeling.
The more I clean, the more my life will vibrate and resonate my true Nature and that is light, love, abundance and joy!”

I felt content…

running down the path now direction Kam3.

It was in front of me, I couldn’t look next to it…
but I saw a dog pooping  in the middle of the path and his boss was walking a few meters in front of him…J
I passed them both
and

almost got ran over from the OVER joyous dog…

the boss a little embarrassed…

but I could see how the dog was happy in being relieved of what he just let go off J
Spontaneous happy… innocent…in the moment…happy…
I felt kind of the same now…
accepting the dog showed me what was happening with my life…. J

J

Nature talks to us in the most mysterious ways….

I came home and talked to Mama _P and told her about my fight to let the whole money-thing go and that it works sometimes and doesn’t other times and she said:
“You did everything you could do for the money-thing, except the one thing you really need to do and that is FORGET ABOUT IT!

LOL…exactly like the dog…smiling…letting go…J and be HAPPY and RELAX!!!!

Love Tamara rainbow
www.rainbowsheart.com

 

I am painting LUCY, delicious

This is how far I am right now, you can follow the LUCY painting on my fan page on facebook.......................................................................... Here is the description as where i am at............................................................................................................................................................................ Lucy in progress… I always have the tendency and it is very soft to say tendency..it is more a deep yearning to paint dimensions beyond dimensions..I can’t help it, I see another dimension behind another dimension in infinite timeless SPACE. Here again in this painting that I paint of Miss cat Lucy. Lucy has a lot going on. When I start a painting it is as if the spirit of the being talks to me and shows images in my head. Here Lucy is revealing herself through me. I knew from the owner that she has an alter ego in the form of a killer whale, but all the rest appeared in a swiftly gently way. Lucy is the being that breaks through ‘duality boundaries”, she doesn’t even live in it. What are you talking about she says? What is duality? I am IT all. I am good and bad…I am black and white…I am non of those things you think of me. IAM. The yin yang changes from black/white into a colored yin/yang. No duality anymore, only infinite possibilities. True abundance, says Lucy also known as Suzy when she sleeps and basks in the infinite spacious Universe. Always death gets followed by a new morning, a new beginning. Life never stops, the earth keeps on turning with Lucy/Suzy sleeping on it. Everything is ok, nothing is wrong. (She has that saying from Mama –P, I guess) Life is love, and love is life. Live life in love, she says. Mmm what delicious to be feeling alive like this in this body….sleep some more and see you later in a new morning. A new beginning of a new IAM moment. MMMMM life…..

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This is MISS LUCY sleeping....LOL -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------LOVE tamara rainbow www.rainbowsheart.com -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Again my apologies for blogger. they did it again...Can't post in my usual spacy way, the text is without spaces. Sorry about that...

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No need to say that Saturday Kaanapali was the max. Slides, hot tub, pools, ocean, friends…

Abundance, abundance and I felt I was on a role…the next day the magical dolphins appeared after all and a huge manta ray came en-joying the party. Oh my God, I was in heaven!

Life doesn’t really goes about money, we think so it this society. We think we can buy it all, but it is one of the biggest mistakes we can make. Nothing is for sale, everything is for free if you step in the portal of abundance.
Abundance is a state of being. You are abundant always, it is who you are.
Abundance is there always in each NEW NOW moment.

 ‘IAM’

If we come in energy of lack, we are away of who we really are and away of our natural state of abundance.
If we are ‘IAM’ we are the Universe, we are it all! We don’t identify with our body or mind.
We are whole!

Then on that platform of being, we don’t receive or give really…bUT we ALLOW to be who we are!!!

We are abundance. It is not something to achieve, it is who we are. That is totally different, then having TO DO effort to manifest or have something.

No, we are it!

That’s how the package deal at the Westin and the scuba diving lessons came to me. I allowed it!
(see other blogs)

I was the BEING allowing to be ABUNDANCE and I just opened my heart for what would come. I didn’t have a clue of what would appear, I just relaxed in the UNKNOWN, in the excitement of the surprises of the UNIVERSE. I didn’t demand anything, I was just open…

How much do you love yourself, to step out of the position of begging (begging can also be demanding) to the place of allowing your Self to be who you really are?

LOVE

Once you ALLOW your Self to ARE who you are, you have allowed for the Universe to perform miracles!

God is giving, God is receiving…it is you that brings that magical energy in movement with ALLOWING…

YES…say YES…feel YES…be YES…YES…YES YES….

In the energy of allowing you have FAITH, you know that you are abundance and God.
You know that everything that appears in your life is FOR you and not against you….

 

All of this I was most aware of and more I was in it…As the Belgians would say, I was sitting with my butt in the butter. I allowed all good things to just happen…This means that my ‘Iam” was master and my thoughts were servants.
And all good things were not defined in good or bad…I was in the energy that whatever was happening was FOR me…J as I described above.

There was NO thought that could me take out of it…Not one..

Until today…

I got a little test. How much do I love myself to stay in this magical place of being?
It is not a God outside of me that fires tests and huge lessons my way(there is no God outside), it is myself that wants to clear out all the old beliefs I still hold somewhere in my being.
I must have had some more Cinderella ‘servant’ energy, because there was a certain situation where I got triggered very badly. The trigger is the knowing that there is still something under the carpet to be cleaned out…so truth can only remain.
Truth is that ‘IAM’…

How much do I love myself to Unhook myself from the lies my mind was making up?

Did I see that this was also FOR me?
I had to remind myself of that and return to my ‘IAM’ state and see that my thoughts are not me, my body is not me…

I pulled myself back and saw the situation as a movie playing in front of me…
I tried to see through my false belief systems, because I know that once I see through them they dissipate.

If you live from inside, you are one with your Soul and in integrity. There is never anything you need from outside to be complete. You never make the outside world the cause of your s..t.

You see through your s..t (painful thoughts) and see the truth:

…I am abundance…

Where’s the hook?

I don’t see it yet…mmmmm
Am looking….

Maybe the fish this morning gave me a clue already.
I saw a fish on a hook in the ocean and it was still alive trying to get off the hook. Me being a vegetarian immediately dove to the fish and tried to unhook it, but I couldn’t get the hook out of its body. The fishermen were probably wondering what I was doing with their fishline. It hurt me so much to see this fish fighting for its life and I was impossible to help it. I was holding the fish in my hand, trying to get the hook out…but I saw soon enough that I would even hurt it more…so I let it go…L
Then I saw another fish and another fish all hooked and I became really sad. L
Why?

Why, can’t they kill it and then hook it? Why does it have to suffer?

Why?

Then my mind went to the dolphins in the Cove in Japan.

Why?

Why do they kill dolphins?

Why are they so cruel?

Why , why , why?

What I learned today is that I am part of God, but not God. Why need God if we have me, right?

Rainbow is going to rule the world, oh boy…then we are really up for some disasters…

I was absolutely with my nose in God’s business, in the fishermen’s business, in Japan’s business, in the dolphin’s business,…I can’t see the bigger plan. I can’t because I am not God.

So It might be the same for the situation that triggered me earlier…that again I was in God’s business. And often that is what’s happening. If we would come back in the energy of ALLOWING, we would pull ourselves back into the “IAM’; the part of GOD that knows that everything is FOR us…. And that we ARE abundance! And that God’s business is always kind!
And we TRUST…that God knows what she is doing…is she? J
Am I?
I don’t know anything…voila...i am in the energy of ALLOWING…

 

Thoughts are just clouds passing in your BLUE sky (blue sky= IAM), don’t let them HOOK you, so you get stuck with belief systems that become IDENTITIES…. J bye bye clouds!

Love Tamara rainbow
www.rainbowsheart.com

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Blogger failed again for posting normal...it glues my text together and i don't like it at all! For people who want to read the text with enough space open the blog HOOKED2, there I will paste it again......................................................................................................................................................................... No need to say that Saturday Kaanapali was the max. Slides, hot tub, pools, ocean, friends… Abundance, abundance and I felt I was on a role…the next day the magical dolphins appeared after all and a huge manta ray came en-joying the party. Oh my God, I was in heaven! Life doesn’t really goes about money, we think so it this society. We think we can buy it all, but it is one of the biggest mistakes we can make. Nothing is for sale, everything is for free if you step in the portal of abundance. Abundance is a state of being. You are abundant always, it is who you are. Abundance is there always in each NEW NOW moment. ‘IAM’ If we come in energy of lack, we are away of who we really are and away of our natural state of abundance. If we are ‘IAM’ we are the Universe, we are it all! We don’t identify with our body or mind. We are whole! Then on that platform of being, we don’t receive or give really…bUT we ALLOW to be who we are!!! We are abundance. It is not something to achieve, it is who we are. That is totally different, then having TO DO effort to manifest or have something. No, we are it! That’s how the package deal at the Westin and the scuba diving lessons came to me. I allowed it! (see other blogs) I was the BEING allowing to be ABUNDANCE and I just opened my heart for what would come. I didn’t have a clue of what would appear, I just relaxed in the UNKNOWN, in the excitement of the surprises of the UNIVERSE. I didn’t demand anything, I was just open… How much do you love yourself, to step out of the position of begging (begging can also be demanding) to the place of allowing your Self to be who you really are? LOVE Once you ALLOW your Self to ARE who you are, you have allowed for the Universe to perform miracles! God is giving, God is receiving…it is you that brings that magical energy in movement with ALLOWING… YES…say YES…feel YES…be YES…YES…YES YES…. In the energy of allowing you have FAITH, you know that you are abundance and God. You know that everything that appears in your life is FOR you and not against you…. All of this I was most aware of and more I was in it…As the Belgians would say, I was sitting with my butt in the butter. I allowed all good things to just happen…This means that my ‘Iam” was master and my thoughts were servants. And all good things were not defined in good or bad…I was in the energy that whatever was happening was FOR me… as I described above. There was NO thought that could me take out of it…Not one.. Until today… I got a little test. How much do I love myself to stay in this magical place of being? It is not a God outside of me that fires tests and huge lessons my way(there is no God outside), it is myself that wants to clear out all the old beliefs I still hold somewhere in my being. I must have had some more Cinderella ‘servant’ energy, because there was a certain situation where I got triggered very badly. The trigger is the knowing that there is still something under the carpet to be cleaned out…so truth can only remain. Truth is that ‘IAM’… How much do I love myself to Unhook myself from the lies my mind was making up? Did I see that this was also FOR me? I had to remind myself of that and return to my ‘IAM’ state and see that my thoughts are not me, my body is not me… I pulled myself back and saw the situation as a movie playing in front of me… I tried to see through my false belief systems, because I know that once I see through them they dissipate. If you live from inside, you are one with your Soul and in integrity. There is never anything you need from outside to be complete. You never make the outside world the cause of your s..t. You see through your s..t (painful thoughts) and see the truth: …I am abundance… Where’s the hook? I don’t see it yet…mmmmm Am looking…. Maybe the fish this morning gave me a clue already. I saw a fish on a hook in the ocean and it was still alive trying to get off the hook. Me being a vegetarian immediately dove to the fish and tried to unhook it, but I couldn’t get the hook out of its body. The fishermen were probably wondering what I was doing with their fishline. It hurt me so much to see this fish fighting for its life and I was impossible to help it. I was holding the fish in my hand, trying to get the hook out…but I saw soon enough that I would even hurt it more…so I let it go… Then I saw another fish and another fish all hooked and I became really sad.  Why? Why, can’t they kill it and then hook it? Why does it have to suffer? Why? Then my mind went to the dolphins in the Cove in Japan. Why? Why do they kill dolphins? Why are they so cruel? Why , why , why? What I learned today is that I am part of God, but not God. Why need God if we have me, right? Rainbow is going to rule the world, oh boy…then we are really up for some disasters… I was absolutely with my nose in God’s business, in the fishermen’s business, in Japan’s business, in the dolphin’s business,…I can’t see the bigger plan. I can’t because I am not God. So It might be the same for the situation that triggered me earlier…that again I was in God’s business. And often that is what’s happening. If we would come back in the energy of ALLOWING, we would pull ourselves back into the “IAM’; the part of GOD that knows that everything is FOR us…. And that we ARE abundance! And that God’s business is always kind! And we TRUST…that God knows what she is doing…is she?  Am I? I don’t know anything…voila...i am in the energy of ALLOWING… Thoughts are just clouds passing in your BLUE sky (blue sky= IAM), don’t let them HOOK you, so you get stuck with belief systems that become IDENTITIES….  bye bye clouds! Love Tamara rainbow www.rainbowsheart.com