Intigrity

There are days you just feel to go inward and to enjoy the Universe within your Self. Often we force ourselves to not go there for several reasons. One reason can be the one of fear. The fear to go inside.
Another reason could be that we want to please others.
Anyway you know the saying; “Been there, done that.”
So I did all of that.

I want to stay in integrity 100%. I came to understand it is the only way you can meet God and your Self.
So enjoy this painting I made of my beloved friends, the dolphins.
I am still pouring like a cat in the magic that surrounds me right now.
Namaste!

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my dolphin friends, this is a new Painting

This last week i had the most amazing magical experiences with my friends the dolphins. I have learned that when you want to keep the magic magic, you treasure it and hold it within yourself and don't blur it out...So in the right timing I will share..here is a new painting.
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Dancing whales

No story today...I’ll keep them all for my book, because of serious obligations to joy and fun for body, mind and soul. I had to take off and go dancing…but here is a new painting!
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love, me

New painting, my dolphin friends

You can buy this painting on www.rainbowsheart.com. Call me for details.
My inspiration came obviously from my brothers and sisters...
I am to tired for a story today and I have to listen and respect my body...I didn't always do that in the past, but that is changing. So please enjoy this beautiful painting.
Good night!

Am in awe

Am in awe

The incredible happened today. My day started with disappointment, when I saw little Koko died. I so saw him fly away. I realized after a few moments that he really flew away. A lot of thought about death crossed my mind. And I realized that he maybe was in the ‘real’ reality now, and we still in the dream. Anyway we all have our thoughts about death and that is the only limitation that death itself has.
Death can be for one person wonderful and the other terrifying, it depends what you think about death.
I was on the beach the other day hearing a conversation of 3 people behind me, one girl said that her mom was worried she was not married yet, because she would have to die alone.
Waaw, that must be terrifying for the mom to think those thoughts. What if her husband dies first?
What if…what if dying alone is the most beautiful experience…we don’t know until it is there. So for little Koko it was there and I saw that he choose to go very peaceful in the safe environment of my home.

I buried him in my favorite place on Maui.

Then the most magical thing happened ever..Well in my existence I have many magical experiences, but this is one of them. I went swimming and encountered my ‘sweetiepies’. Loesje, my dolphin friend ( the dolphin from yesterdays story) came out of the pod to great me. I didn’t know what was happening… I couldn’t believe my heart…sometimes we say eyes, but here my heart was pounding full of love.
Normally they stay with the same partner. But she left her partner for some moments and came to say hi!
I was so honored she still recognized me from yesterday. She looked great. Then when I left she did the same and we had some moments together, I gave her more healing energy…and I am so in love!
What a wonderful life!

This is for KOko..
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Respect

Today I had two animals coming to me for healing. I am so honored, so so honored.
I found, well a dolphin found me this morning in the Ocean and had a really nasty cookie cutter shark bite.
She came to me and I baptized her to Loesje, a Belgian name. So now there is a dolphin in Hawaii that is called Loesje. She will be fine now. I walked on the beach tonight and send her again healing energy.
It was amazing, this morning she stayed for about 40 minutes close to me, she didn’t want to leave me and I just loved her so much. I was giving her energy on the wounded spot and told her how beautiful she was. I told her also how I loved her over and over. She rolled her in the loving energy, she really needed it. I assumed she was in a lot of pain.
My friend H, came later and helped her with giving energy on the other side. And H. gave her a leave to play, she did. And then came back to me for some more healing. When we saw she took the leaf we were happy. When a dolphin plays, we know she will be ok.
I will never ever forget Loesje, I never had a dolphin that stayed so long and close to me. I could not even get away from her, she would just follow me.
Can you imagine in which expansive energy I was all day! I am so amazed that I live my life like it is right now. I can say truly I love it, I love my life and I enjoy every minute of it. Life goes fast and I came to see that you really have to do where your heart is.
Don’t wait, because that means you only postpone and put weight on your life. Living it fully is creating with the speed of light.
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Talking about speed. I had mentioned to my dear friend H. that I wanted a watch for in the water. We always lose track of time and become one with the Ocean. We get carried away and before we know it we are a dolphin, turtle or whale ourselves and forget that we live on land.
Anyway this morning an underwater watch was waiting for me on a rock near the water. Thank you God! That was fast.
Time…woeha I never wear a watch, but I am going to wear it in the Ocean, ‘and then I can tell the turtles what time it is. 
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And then tonight, am sitting here on my drawing table and hear a ‘wham!’ against my window. I run outside to see what could hit my window like that. No birds anymore, because it is night and dark, but no there is my friend Koko, a little Hawaiian bird indeed. I could easily take him. I gave him some water. He looks great, vibrant..so I don’t think he is wounded or anything.
So strange that today the animals are looking for me…
Anyway here is a picture of Koko. I don’t know if he agrees with his name, same as Loesje.

Tomorrow morning I told him, he could go and fly again, now he had to stay in and be safe.

Oh my God! I was wondering what Koko came to say to me. And right in this minute when I am sharing this amazing story I am getting it! I called 4 friends, no 5 this evening to ask them a question. Something was bothering me the whole time and I was struggling with it.

I have witnessed how NOT respectful people are with dolphins, turtles etc… Really bad. My heart bleeds when I see that. I even thought of starting a non-profit or so. It made me angry and I had to witness that I started defending and protecting them. I used my body to give them the space they need and I was wondering this night if I have the right to do that.
The who am I? question was turning in my head..
For the second time in my life ( I have no children of myself, but cared and loved for two children a lot)
I felt like a MAMA again. I felt super strong to protect these innocent animals that can’t defend themselves.
Dolphins come to have rest and people don’t get that.
So this little fellow here, Koko.(he is great sits in my laundry basket fooling around, and making going to sleep sounds)came to give me the message, that animals feel safe with me. They trust me.
What a gift! What an amazing gift this is today!
They trust me because I know boundaries. And I know especially space and freedom. I so have to be free. And one of the main structures of freedom is that you RESPECT one another. If it is a human, an animal or plant…not many do that. How often are we not in a misty dream and we don’t see that everything in this Universe is interconnected and ONE? That means that everything is part of you and we are all the same. So what you do to another you do to yourself. If you don’t respect another, you don’t respect yourself somewhere. It is that easy. Always go back to yourself.
So I guess the animals also show me, how it is to be safe for me to be with me….
waaw what an awesome message. Thank you guys!
Oh by the way Koko was doing his going to sleep sounds and he fell asleep now. He is in my bamboo basket, a very large one…perfect just made for him, his nest for the night….
Good night everybody…
Be kind for one another …

Love tamara rainbow

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NAMASTE

Robin Hood

Lately my life is an abundant stream of  great coincidences. Well, you know, I guess it is always like that. It only depends in which mind frame you are if it turns to the positive or negative side. Yes we live on Earth, a duality world!
Right now I am in the stream of abundance, happiness, laugher, joy..hei I am describing the energy of dolphins!!! It is really great.
I ask and I receive….it is great.
I have a little story.
Do you remember I made my ‘True Self’ painting to manifest my true energy and everything that my heart longs for?
Right…I made a big one now, on a round wooden board…
I painted the picture as I feel my being is right now in this life. It didn’t had to be beautiful, I could do whatever I wanted…create and paint my true identity.
I painted me in a golden boat. Dolphins are guiding me. The boat can fly or could navigate in the Ocean waters. It comes on shore and it flies away…this is my enormous longing for freedom. Freedom is to me the most important thing in my life.
I painted turtles all around me too. They were in and out the boat and were little treasures. They lift their shelf up and gold coins were in it. Abundance!
And then I painted myself in large, my face and my hands…I had like6 or 7 hands and arms, waving in the wind. Every hand was doing something different. I was painting, holding a staff,… doing different things.
What was important was that my hair was waving, even when there was no wind. It is the symbol of freedom to me. Strange , long hair means to me freedom.
The kind of coat I am wearing on the painting is really strange. It has a long hood in a point, and long points at it sleeves too.

I was just painting and painting and tried to bring the energy of my ‘freedom being’ into this reality world.
A few days later after I did a lot of work on my painting, I went to Paia. I was working in a store giving readings. My friend L. said; “Rainbow. You forgot your coat last time.” I was looking weird.
I answered;” I don’t have a coat, what are you talking about? We live in Hawaii. It’s too warm”
I didn’t look to the coat, until J. my other friend came in the store and told me the same thing. This time I felt to look which coat they thought was mine.
I almost fell down of surprise (Belgian expression), there was exactly the coat I painted! Only the color wasn’t the right color. But that was amazing. This was not a normal coat that you could find easily in any shop here in Hawaii.
Anyway I was astonished.
The next day I was wondering and to be truthful disappointed that it wasn’t the right color. I felt guilty I was disappointed and didn’t have enough gratitude. It was later that I understood that God helps you to bring about what your heart longs, because your heart is the path of God, only the steps are made in the speed we can step. God walks our speed. The coat was a clear sign I was on the right path, only needed to be more clear and specific….and it showed me I was on track!!!!
So never be disappointed when something is not really what you were asking for, it can be a first sign you are on track, but just need to do some more aligning and wanting!!

Here is the painting I made to manifest the coat….

And here is my coat! Robin Hood!

Watch out what you are wishing for?

You know that saying;”Watch out what you are wishing for?”
Yes you have to be careful. Today my friend Ju left back to his home country and I was very sad. I was sitting on the beach. (Still with my painful foot half swollen and with a feeling of exhaustion and stiffness.)
Anyway my thoughts carried me away and suddenly I was missing everyone that left my life lately. There are periods in your life that it all kind of comes together. Suddenly you are in a wave and carried away by the Universe and set in other circumstances. It is as if you have to get used to that new life. You can not hang on to the old, because it doesn’t work anymore. Inside you know that the life you had before was not in alignment with our own being, but still you try to grasp to that past. That was what happened with me this morning.
I started wishing things and one of those things was to have a family and to be surrounded by them.
I went to little beach and put all my stuff on the sand. My towel spread out, my painting stuff on top of it. Everything was beautiful organized. And after I did that I took a dive in the beautiful cooling Ocean.
When I came back people had placed them next to me. It was scary close, but I thought ok I can live with that. After 10 minutes two other people came and sit at the other side of me, and very fast it was clear that the people behind me, and next on my left and on my right were all related. I was the only ‘not connecting piece’. They had put the cooler behind me and now I became the center of the group. Everybody had to step next to me…or on me…Very fast I saw the humor of the Universe…you want a family, here is one. You are’ smak’ in the middle of it….
When sand got in my painting stuff I thought I had enough of the family- bounding and looked for a spot where I wasn’t the center. Funny isn’t it? I let the family longing go…
And ten minutes later I get a text from my friend D. if I wanted to go to little beach with her. I was sitting on little beach…
Anyway it taught me that the way we see family, is not real any more. It taught me that everybody is my family. After that awareness I felt one with everybody on little beach.
It is important to go through life with family, but that can be your best friends, like minded spirits…
I was missing the family I lost a while ago..but had to see today that what I really am looking for is to be one with the Universe/God. In that oneness I am one with everybody on earth.
D. came and we played in the waves, saw a magnificent sunset and dove to hear the whales sing.
Thank you D. to be my family!
I love it how the Universe responds to us in an immediate way….

This is little beach!

love Rainbow

Rest

Sorry, no stories today. I got a bee sting yesterday asking me to slow down and rest.I guess i am going to listen this time... Don't want my other foot to be out of commision too (belgian expression)...:)
Enjoy the tranquility and peace of the turtles.....
well this one shines...
LOL
A new painting!!!

One minute silence

A new painting...enjoy....the innocence of the turtles.
Turtles don’t really fight with each other. Last time I saw one sleeping, another came behind him and pushed him away. How rude! The one that was pushed away, just looked and gave up its place immediately.
No fighting, just acceptance…mmm…
I know that there is a lot of negativity and pain in the world, to mention this…but I will do it anyway.
It touched me, that’s why.
A huge turtle died today in Maui at the aquarium today. I was there last week with my friend J. and we saw how she was blind and probably would die, because she couldn’t eat any more. There is a sort of growth that sometimes grows on turtles..
Here it had formed on her eyes…
She was a grandma honu…
Love to her Soul…

Healing art

I use my paintings as healing. Here is one painting that I used recently. I call it INTENTIONAL ART...I paint the liberation of the illness. I hear words that describe the identity of the illness and afterwards I make a sketch or painting to bring power into the reversed energies we are bringing in. I saw that an illness is never within yourself but lashes unto you as a separate identity. Once you see the deeper meaning of it you can change the energies. We work as a team to disempower the belief systems behind the illness.
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Flowers for the beloved

Flowers for the beloved

Lately I had some different behavior. Where I live (Maui, one of the most gorgeous places in the world...lucky me…) there are a lot of plumeria trees.
A few mornings now, I was collecting plumeria flowers after my run. I would hold them in true reference. I noticed that my first feelings were mixed, I felt happiness but also sadness. Happiness for the beauty of the flower and sadness because I was ‘thinking’ its life was over.
Those feelings were of course the result of thoughts that tried ‘to reason’ the whole situation.
In my reasoning I would make up stories in my head about life and death. Yes I am a seeker. Always was.
I communicate with Nature, to know more about God.
The second thought would not agree with the first one and say that death doesn’t exist…
And so here I am communicating, thinking if I take the flower home, its death will not be so awful; then dying on a street all by itself. The other thought saying that it is not alone at all….
Those thoughts were playing pingpong to see who is right.
Neither of them of course, each holds on to its movie in one head. My head.

And then THEN comes the heart and doesn’t mind about the first and the second and the third thought…’no-thought’ comes into play…
There is no comparison any more…only NOW…
The heart is now…picks up a flower and pours itself in the presence of this wonderful abundant smelling flower. There only remains love for the flowers ESSENCE…
smell….mmmmmmmm
I put it towards my nose and I am in heaven…
I walk home holding the plumerias as I am holding a little bird in my hand.
I walk up the steps and bring them in my beautiful home. Happy they are there, happy they are…

Pulmeria…

I put two on my drawing chair…

Often I leave my home then to find my Ocean friends and land friends…

And now comes the real essence of the story…
One day ,particularly...I came back home from swimming; I walked through my door and see 2 plumeria flowers laying on my chair…
The first thought was:
Who did this?
Who put it there?
How kind is that?

and I am not kidding, it was as if I forgot I was the one who had put it there.
It is something I love to do with friends. I love to leave little notes, telephone calls, flowers … anywhere I can to let them know they are loved.

And here I am coming in the door seeing I am loved…
Waaaw
And then realize…
I did it!
I love me…
It is a powerful experience…it gives you wings…it gives you love…

I could see that the love I showed for myself was the same love I had felt for the flowers when I picked them up from the street. The essence of the flowers was one with my essence and only love was connecting us….
Try it, it is awesome…

Love love love

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I have a whole lot of new paintings…

Mahalo says honu

Here is a new painting...Since i moved back to Kihei-which I Love!- it is impossible to ‘slam me away’ (Belgian expression which means you can’t get me away from something, because I love it so much)out of the Ocean.
Anyway I am so moved by the dolphins, whales and turtles. They are a huge part in my life and I am every time incredible surprised how they feel comfortable, safe and good with me. I can observe them from very close and I must say that each turtle has the same basic pattern.
I love to paint their bodies, but what I really adore is to talk to them and more important is to listen to what they have to say.
I keep on saying that a turtle is wise and throw their eyes in the air when they see humans act sometimes. It is incredible to see that Nature is so perfect and that humans are managing to destroy this beautiful planet earth.
As much as Maui is beautiful I see that the coral is dying…that everything is fading…
Humans ( Do know I never ever generalize, there are some that are waking up and those will know they are not included. And not considered human any more )

What we don’t SEE is that what is fading away outside of us, is happening INSIDE of us.
We are fading away from our own Nature, from who we really are. We want to shut this empty feeling with all kinds of addictions and ‘wants’. We lost the sacred…
In…
and OUT…
If we continue…
our Planet is precious and is our creation.
What you see outside of you is happening INSIDE of you…
the only way you can help the planet is with making the change from inside out…
rebuild the sacredness inside of you
and you will see it appear
in front
of your
own
eyes…
You will know from that deepness
what to do outside of you to serve...

Thank you says HONU (turtle in Hawaiian)
MAHALO!
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Life is life! a new painting

A new Painting
Life

Life lived in the moment is seeing the miracle happen within and outside of your Self.
How many times we say that our children grow to fast? Life flies by…
Enjoy life, like this man holds its child in his hands.
Life is precious, it is a gift.
Don’t throw it away with hanging onto the past…don’t give it to tomorrow, because that might never come. Give it to this moment now and hold it as the most fragile treasure.
Are you looking for years for happiness and fulfillment?
It is not outside of you, but inside of you…iT IS IN YOUR HANDS…your life.
What are you going to do with it?
Give up the fear to live and live…do what you want to do…now!

Thank you God!

You are the baby..you are the hands…
God is the baby….It are Gods hands…
There is no separation…
What you want for your life, God wants…
Your wish is my command…
Whatever…
Choose now!

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Martin luther King

This is for Martin Luther King...because he knew that there is only one Race...
This golden mandala stands for the identical Soul that is in each one of us, regardless of skin color, tribes, lands, continents, language,DIFFERENCES...we are all equal..We all come from the same Source and return to the same one. Maybe it is time to see that and to live in peace. DITO for all the plants and animals...

love Rainbow

Dolphin love

This is a new painting!
This is one of my expressions for my true true love for the dolphins. One time I was singing for them( I always do) and they love it, they circle around me, are so happy...they play with me...
I love them so much and they are so sweet..i am wondering what we can do to make the Japanese people aware NOT to kill dolphins any more.
To make others aware that dolphins don't belong in captivity.
Freedom for each dolphin!

My website is www.rainbowsheart.com

A great surprise

A great present

Ever lost contact with somebody and years later you find each other back and become best friends again. You support each other through thick and thin (Belgian expression) and your mind is blank of the past. That is what happened to me. I saw a friend back and I only could see her beauty, her power and if I would try to remember things from the past. IT WAS NOT THERE. BLANK.
First I found it strange, but then I knew it was the Universe in me that erased every memory.

We come to earth and are soulmates for each other.
I believe you have more than one soul mate in your life. Soulmates are not always the romantic partners. Sometimes it is the person who let you grow the most. That can through pain or it can be through support to follow your creative divine path.
My friend H. supports me enormously. She is a friend that takes my fear away. That listens and encourages me to bring the best out of my-Self.
Well to be honest, the person that ‘hurts’ you(hurt is a perception) also helps you to walk your divine path.
Remember there is only one thing that is happening in this life: everything is there to walk your divine path. Not one time you are off it. Everything happens perfect, in the right timing and with the right soulmates.
The goal is to see who you really are. There is no judgment in that space of grace!
You are, I am.
No good or bad soulmates…Only mates helping you on your path of awakening.

We are playing a movie, a game..how are you going to play it? Are we awake enough to see that everything is a game? Nothing is real and we have the power to chose what we WANT?

I have many of those great soulmates, lucky I am. I hope I am a great one too. I try to be in any way.

Yesterday I saw it was pouring at Mekana and at first I was going to stay home. But then I remembered the smell of rain on lava and I just needed to go. I also knew my friend Helen might be there and so I just drove through the heavy rain. I had my window wide open, smelling the intense sense of Nature. It doesn’t rain much here at this side of the island, so when it happens we are extremely happy.
I drove to Keone’I’io. It was breathtaking. There were paddles of water everywhere.
When I came in the bay I saw my friend H. sitting in her car. In the minute I ran to her car I was soaking wet.
For about 3 hours we enjoyed the rain, the view of the bay and the magical book she was reading loud for both of us. It was so magic. It empowered us. The book was so brought to us in divine timing.
Thank you H.!

As everybody I sometimes doubt about my real purpose in life. You have that those days, you doubt everything….I see that in 2012 a lot of us are confused of our real life purpose. Mostly that is because we look too far. We look for a great meaning and don’t see the ‘lilies in the field’ anymore.
When I was sitting in the car with H. listening to the words she was reading I truly could say I was right smack in the middle of my life purpose. I was listening with full attention to my friend in the here and now. There was nothing else then that in that moment. And it felt so good!
I was truly life purpose itself!

And humbly I want to share that on days like this 1/11/2012 and 1/12/2012..i love the numbers and I truly believe there is something in the energy of those numbers. I just feel it, I don’t know what…
Maybe just the ability to say..I am sitting here in the bay…I know I have lots of things to do…but this is now important. The mind chatter in your head from old teachers as parents, or school teachers that taught you that life is work…crosses your mind…but then you choose again…and you choose for Divine authority and not human mind chatter….
NAMASTE!

A naked Angel

Angels are coming in the most particular ways. One came on little beach to me this last Sunday. It is always a drum festivity on the only naked =beach of Maui. I love it. That is how I pictured the Us all around when I was younger. The land of freedom…you bet I got an awakening call when I saw that I believed a dream. Anyway I enjoy little beach, it gives me a feeling of freedom.
I mostly am topless, like most Europeans are on every beach in Europe. No big deal there.

Anyway I search for a good spot and found one at the far left side. There were so much people there was not a lot of free spots anymore. The atmosphere was nice and joyful. I sat next to a beautiful young man that was meditating. He had a certain charisma. Later I would understand he wanted to copy Jesus a little bit. He really looked like him. The young man was sitting in a lotus position straight in front of a little self made shop he made. He had put very carefully stones and rings on a little table made from sand.
You could smell the incense soaring in the sky.
Suddenly young girls were surrounding him and they were all beautiful too. It was as if he had a whole harem. That was the feeling I got.
It was all peaceful and nice. But suddenly my own thoughts took a dive into the dark depths of a world that only existed in my mind.
“You are not good enough
Not beautiful enough,
Not thin enough
You don’t fit in,…”
Run away,
You never fit in anywhere,
You are a loner,
a hermit, leave,
You don’t fit in.
You are nothing,…
It went on and on for an hour I think. Total self abuse, self hate, all what you can think off to name it.
Suddenly an old thin naked man stands in front of me. He had long grey hair and a beard. And when he spoke I could see he had only a few teeth left.

He said;”Isn’t this a wonderful day? It are only your thoughts that can screw this day for you!”

I was perplex…here …this complete stranger told me exactly what I knew. I almost lost the fight and left, but this man kept me there.
I tried to change my thoughts more. Did some Byron Katie work, to break the illusions and to be with what is.
But that man was a gift!

The more I was questioning my thoughts the happier I became. I started feeling better and better. And then suddenly he was there again.

“Can I sit next to you for a few minutes?”

I said;”Sure.”

he stayed for about 2 hours. He told me his amazing life story. And if it is true or not, I didn’t care I was just listening and painting. He loved it and just continued talking. I asked him questions sometimes and we felt bounded.
His life was one of a nomad that has 6 wives and 5 children, or was it the other way around? It didn’t matter to me. He followed Osho for a while and many other teachers around the globe. And he gave me this wisdom: You don’t need anything to be happy. He said he had a mansion and was a university professor. But now he wanted to be free. He said there were two kind of people nomads and mad-ones.
the nomads are free and the mad-ones try to pay their mortgage, their car,…
You want to find your Self he asked?
Yes.

Look in the mirror and there you are.

Many many more stories that I might tell another time.
But before he left he said; “thank you for saving my day.”
I said; “I thought you saved my day. Thank you for your wisdom.”
And he replied;”Thank you for your smile and your humbleness. I knew I had to sit here.”

This old wise man,…I will never forget him.
He said it to me;”maybe we will see each other never again.”
Thank you M. for changing my life and to be my angel for the day!
Here for M. this painting of little beach! Visit my website wwww.rainbowsheart.com

A new soulpainting

Here is e new Soulpainting of a beautiful Soul,
please visit my website www.rainbowsheart.com or call me 808-754-5883 if you also want a beautiful soul painting,
A soulpainting is a original painting and a written discription of it....

love Rainbow

God Maui

This is a new Painting. It is the God maui and Haleakala. Halakala is the volcano on Maui and translated it means 'The house of the Sun."

It is my expression for my deepest gratitude and honor to be in Maui.

More paintings on my website http://www.rainbowsheart.com/

The love of my life

Dolphins are the love of my life. I can't shut up about them. I can't stop thinking about them. I have it really bad…this thing with dolphins.
There are no words for it…their sounds, their energy, their joy and happiness…
No words…
Just enjoy my newest painting. I love this one. The big dolphin blends in the back ground and the other two going into the light, as metaphor for the joy and light that is within each ones heart. It is the heart of the Universe…our heart…the heart of God/ the Universe…

Dolphins love to play, the love people, the love it all…
Hmmm maybe sharks they don’t love…
But I do believe that dolphins have a higher consciousness then humans. I know this is a very bold thing to say, but they don’t THINK so much. They can’t think until they are a ‘worry-machine’. They just are…

Anyway you can order this painting on canvas or paper. The original is still for sale too.
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all love Rainbow

It is KIREI!

I once had the opportunity to take a Japanese mom and her two children to the beach. There was a Japanese group here in Maui and there was one car to short to drive the whole group to the beach. So I volunteered and it was a really awesome experience. I love the Japanese people, they are so humble and sweet! (We can learn a lot from that)

Anyway, the mom spoke a little English and we had the most fun. Our conversation would often end in showing hand signals. But there was not one moment we didn’t understand eachother. Thatw as so awesome! When you speak from the heart, there is no limitation possible!
She taught me Japanese while we were driving down Haleakala from Makawao to Paia. The children were in the back and didn’t understand one word of English.
K., the mom and I had an instant bound. We would say in Belgium that it ‘clicks’.
It was so beautiful the drive down and I told her that.”Kirei”, she said. That meant ‘beautiful’ in Japanese.

We were laughing hard and repeatedly said the word ‘Kirei’, or ‘beautiful’.
We took turns in pointing out what we found kirei!

And it was as if we attracted the most beautiful amazing things the longer we were using the words kirei and beautiful.

The cherry on the cake we got when we drove back after an awesome afternoon in the turquoise waters of Baldwin beach with the children, her and all the other Japanese people.
There was a huge rainbow at the sky and the full moon was standing high in the sky. It was as if the moon was smiling to us,  when we started practicing again; ”Kirei,kirei,…, beautiful, beautiful.”

I believe that when you are so in joy and happiness and you speak out loud the words of that happiness, you create more beauty and happiness.
Here we created beauty after beauty….
When we arrived back to the retreat center we exchanged gifts. I gave her postcards from my paintings and she gave me a little candle light that she made herself. It had the form of a little gold fish. It is so precious to me I put it on the dash board of my car( which is my altar) so I can remember what K. taught me;  “the energy of KIREI.”

There is so much Kirei on the planet, in people, animals and plants….
Kirei!
I hope you love my awesome painting…KIREI!!!!!
You can order prints on http://www.rainbowsheart.com/

Thank you K.!

It is awe!

This is a new painting…

I was inspired by the turtles in the turquoise Hawaiian waters today. I love it!

Here you see a honu (Hawaiian for turtle) emerged in the Ocean and the colors of my feelings when I see them. In my expression the turtle, me and my joyful feeling comes one and this is the result of that moment in the depth of the ocean.

I remember my first turtle in Hawaii. You have to know that I am used to the little miniature turtles that we have in aquariums in Belgium. Unfortunately they give them on fairs for free and they end up in our recreation parks, biting ducks. Or their destiny is even worse than that. It are only humans that can think of doing such things!

I can go on and on about things like this… but not today…

Today I wanted to share my first turtle in Hawaii. I saw it at Kailua beachpark two days after my arrival.
I didn’t have a snorkel yet and I wanted to go closer. He or she was in the waves and it was huge! (in my perception knowing only the miniature ones) I was scared of it.
 
What I want to share is this:

This awe feeling we have for new things. You know how that feels …It feels as being a child again.
 It is an exciting feeling of innocence and gratitude for that new “thing’! The enthusiastic feeling opens our hearts as we were jumping dolphins in the Ocean.
I am here now in Hawaii for 6 years and after 2 years I lost my awe moment for the turtles and the water. It became my environment, just like your home and surroundings became your environment. We are taking it for granted. (I have guts writing in the We form…Apoligize for people who are not recognizing them in it)
 It became boring for me, I have to admit. I lost the innocence of the moment. I moved to Haiku where I totally lost myself in another story, and where I didn’t swim for about 2 years. When the story of Haiku ended I returned to Kihei and you can’t imagine how happy I am right now. Haiku was not my place, I was dying there. I always felt that, but love does you do the weirdest things. (Or is that not love?)

Now I see my period in haiku as a blessing. I can see clearly now who I am and what I love. The distance of space, gave me a lot of insights.
I missed the Ocean so much. I had to go away to feel that.  When I returned and I touched the water I was in awe. I saw my first turtle and I was in awe. I felt the water on my skin and I was in awe. I saw the smallest fish and I was in awe. I stared at the ocean and I was in awe. I saw the sunset and I was in awe….I WAS IN AWE AGAIN!
I promised myself to never ever lose the AWE feeling any more. Now when I go in the ocean I am open for adventure and if that adventure is the feeling of water on my skin, it will be that experience; I am not attached anymore on any conditions I made up in my mind. I mean by that.  Sometimes we go in the water and we expect to see something. If that expectation is not met, then we are disappointed and we didn’t feel the water or we didn’t see the yellow fish that was winking to us.
It is for everything in life!
If you want a life of disappointment have expectations.
Have no expectation and every single gift is an awe moment.
I not only do that with the Ocean, but with my whole life now. LIFE is a total adventure and nothing I see is the same as yesterday! I can’t fall into the trap of boredom anymore, because nothing was there yesterday. Everything is new and I see everything with an open heart.
This is allowing to our inner child to be in awe.
Done with living as an automatic pilot!

I am grateful for every moment in my life….It is an ‘awe’ life.
My environment, my home is not the same as I saw it yesterday. It is a new place with exciting new beginnings. I came to see when I live like that, there is gratitude in every single second of my life.
It is awe.

This painting is painted on canvas and is 250 dollars, you can order it on my website http://www.rainbowsheart.com/ or you can order prints also!

My liberating thoughts

Interesting day…my body is not working with me, or are my thoughts working against my body?

Is not the body innocent? And only the receiver of thoughts? Are our bodies created by our minds? Do we abuse our bodies with abusive and negative self talk?

Today was a day of strange feelings and thoughts. On top of that I had a feeling my body would explode.
Maybe my body was reacting on the extremely rare thoughts that were in my mind.

I don’t know. It is just very uncomfortable.

I had listened to a tape, where the author describes you need to embrace your own death. It brought me in a weird atmosphere of awareness. It was not bad; it was just interesting and uncomfortable. I saw that I wanted to avoid the idea of being death. That is still a long time a way I thought. The author continued and shared that your life could be over in a sec. Oeps, that is true. He described that we were living in a dream state because we are pushing the death reality away. We don’t want to think, hear nor talk about it.

And that’s right. I don’t.

But then he continued and I realized he was right in a way,. Through accepting death, we come to a full awareness of each moment in our life. Mmmm…it felt free.
But not comfortable. Who wants to think about his own death?
I looked around me and nothing mattered any more. If I was death, there was nothing to worry about. There was nothing to be happy about neither.
Oh, there was just nothing.

Or not?

How would it be to be dead?

I pushed it away and went home painting. I love to listen to you tube video’s of inspirational teachers and this time I put Echart Tolle on. Interesting enough he starts talking about the need to die in order to be alive.
Waaw this is twice in one day….

Ok now I start listening more closely. My body started being funky and I was getting more angry at it, the later it came. What was going on? I couldn’t handle the dying lectures at all.

It was like all I ever wanted and tried in my life to get or do was not important anymore.
Even the fact my body and my thoughts were bothering me today, I took it as a sign to look at it closely. Neither my thoughts nor body is going to make it. Soon or later I am going to die.
All the worries about paying rent on time, war, peace, friends that are angry, friends that are happy, what will I eat tonight, my art,…nothing will be important any more when I die. It didn’t feel good, but in the moment of acceptation there was a great freedom. It was as if all fear in my life dissolved.

A relief went through my body. I didn’t have to become or do anything if I didn’t want too.

The worst thing that could happen was that I would die, and that will happen anyway.

I came to see that we are all equal. People with power and big ego now, will lose that ego soon enough when they die. We all return to the same.

To end the evening I wanted to take a tarot card for fun….ye ye
Jaja…guess …I took the DEATH card.

I am in a weird place right now. It is as if I am soaring between a place of no existence and existence.
It feels as if I have great freedom now and I have a feeling I can do anything I want. It is as if fear left my being.
Was this the very thing I ran away from all this years, since my mom died?

 Yes it was. I couldn’t accept death. I don’t know if I did today. But I did put a huge step in the right direction. I just feel it.

Nothing of the small concerns of life is important anymore, when you stop denying death.

I guess that is the most important thing that happens when you embrace your own death. It is as if there are no concerns for the future anymore, because there is no future!
Sorry my message is so morbid. But I hope you see the freedom in this message today. I feel that my world in me and around me is not the same anymore. I know I still have a lot to learn about this. But I know I took the first step in being FULLY ALIVE with embracing my death.

Dying to the Self, because that is what it is, is being born in the infinite.
And I can be wrong…but these were my thoughts of today..i wonder which painting I can add to this. I always paint so lively. But maybe death is just that= being alive.


this painting is Kukuipuka, heiau in Maui. A heiau is a sacred place for Hawaiians.
Kukuipuka means 'Doorway to the light'.
I painted this not a long time ago. Itb shows multi dimensional layers of existence.
My website http://www.rainbowsheart.com/


love Rainbow

It is stronger than myself...

It is stronger than myself, is an expression we would use in Belgium, to say that there is something in me that is stronger than my mind can understand. There is no way the mind can say no to the push I feel form inside. Is it the will or the heart? It is something that is so strong you can’t resist and you just do it. I don’t speak about an addiction, but here in my case it has to do with my art.
I can’t just do art. I mean I do just art, but it is my unique art. I get rapidly bored if I would do only landscapes or flowers or so. I do them sometimes, but you will see that-it is stronger than myself- I will add something to it. It can be a mandala, or some infinity sign in the sky.
It is as if I create multi dimensional paintings. I always am pushed to show that there is more to see than we see. Behind the flower is a radiance of energy that we don’t see. There is another dimensional world we are not aware off. And behind that other dimensional world there is another. And another. And another. And another. And another. And another………………………………

I would have to paint layers on layers on layers of different dimensional worlds.
The sound of the flower,
 the light of the flower,
 the vibration of the flower.
Gnomes,
fairies,…
go on and on….

And then I am only speaking from the point view of one single person, and that is me.
Add another person and the same landscape is another landscape! An infinite number of other worlds are born! Not one person sees the same thing. Everybody has its own perception of something….
What an exciting world of worlds!



My paintings are for sale on http://www.rainbowsheart.com/

Honu Hugs

Here I am in the New Year…seems that animals love me. With 3 other friends we found a secret turtle sanctuary on Sunday. We saw about 12 turtles or more. We couldn’t count it anymore and a huge jelly fish was at the party too!
I had my Honu moment when a little turtle (honu) came and hang at my belly. First I thought he might not have been aware. But as soon as I talked it was inviting me to give him 'grace'(reiki, or how you want to call it) energy. So I did and I noticed he had a wound on its shell. He turned in little circles around me asking for more. He was so so cute. When I gave it healing energy on its shell, it  started caressing himself with his fins. I was amazed and in so much gratitude for this experience. My friend S. was watching the whole thing.It was so beautiful to see this little guy asking for energy hugs!

What a beautiful wonderful life I have here in Maui!
I feel so blessed to be here. I love it here very much.
The Ocean is partly my home and going in the Ocean, is entering a world of adventure. Any moment we can encounter something magical!

But so is life said my friend P. today.
Life is a wondrous adventure.
I am happy with the life I have right now.
Thank you God within me…
let’s let 2012 rock in an abundant dance of joy and freedom!

Love rainbow

Painting for sale on my website http://www.rainbowsheart.com/