The beloved touched me by its gentle breeze

Walking
i feel my strong shoulders
my body
walking

I hear the Ocean coming and going
walking

see Venus in its magnificense
Followed by the abundant Jupiter

walking
the warm breeze of the Wailea night is caressing my skin
feels good
I smell the fragrance of sweet flowers in the night
the Ocean sounds in the background
my thoughts coming and going

I watch my thoughts

They go to this morning
how I swam with my friends, the dolphins
mmm magical thoughts

I see

how I could be easy be carried away

from this splender now

Walking
I see the palm trees and hear their leaves dancing in the soft breeze…

Mmmm
this moment now

There are my thoughts again
easily going to the past or to future…
I choose not to

Mmmm a thought comes again...
and it says you should focus and intent your future…

Mmmm
walking
I listen
and look around me
FEEL
there is nothing that I would rather want then this
right here and now
in this moment

I feel contentment sprouting from my source deep inside
there is nothing that I would want more

Then what is giving me
right here and now

this moment is perfect

In its full abundance.

My body feels strong
the softly gentle breeze
touches it
as a lover
in the passion
of its longing
to love…
it is all love,
it is all here and now.

the breeze is
my lover tonight...

Nothing has to change and
anything can change

waves are coming in
waves are going out

walking
teh beloved touched me,

tamara

I am wild life too!

I was talking about wild life yesterday…huh …The Universe is so funny you know!

Yesterday…

I was writing my blog, edited it …yes edit myself. Sorry no time to give to 3th parties, so I end always with some Belgian English, I guess. I would not know! As I don’t hear anymore I have an accent…Woeha! When I tell my friends, that I think I don’t have an accent anymore; they kind of look at me. And that says enough…I don’t say more then.  I know how late it is…(Belgian expression)
Guess, it is so with my writing too.
But I guess that is ok. It doesn’t matter so much, the exact correct writing is only the façade, what is more important is the content of what I am writing. J
That’s how I soften and justify the mistakes in my blogs….

Anyway, I edited and post it and that was it. I walk around in my living room and suddenly I hear a Miaaauw in front of my screened sliding door that goes to my lanai. There was a beautiful cat staring at me.

To understand the following conversation I had with the cat, you have to go back to my previous blog from yesterday.

And when I listened carefully to her, I heard her saying (I assume it is a she);
” What about me?”I want some of that love, I am WILD LIFE too.”
I stared at her and she just stared back. Then I started talking to her and she just was looking through the open sliding door (you know those without glass. To warm in Hawaii to close your house!)
Anyway she took off when I tried to open the door to let her in…She was wild, she let me know! J
But it was funny. Ok ok, you are wild life too!

Ok that was fun…

And then today I get up early and see the sunrise color the sky amazingly pink!
Oh my God, it was stunning.
Every morning I run and I love it.
So I am off for my run and after 10 minutes I hear somebody shouting behind me. I look behind and see a woman with her pajama’s on, running behind her dog that was running behind me. (This was probably a hilarious sight!)
It was a young dog that wanted to play with my legs and just wanted to run with me. I turned 180 degrees and run to the woman, so she could catch it.
The dog had a message for me:
” What about me?”I want some of that love; I am WILD LIFE too.”

Hahahah this was too hilarious!

I wonder who would be next…

When I run I get lots of insights and the insight I got from Miss cat and Mister dog was that we are all WILD LIFE!
Wild LIFE referring on being free! The wild free Soul inside of each one of us!
It is that piece of us that can’t be tamed, limited or imprisoned.
We all want to be free. For me it is the most precious thing that life can give me!
Why do we want a lot of money or a house or this or that... I feel it is to be free.
So we don’t really want a house, or money, or…but what we really want is to be free as the WILD LIFE.

We want to live a wild life!

We want to live a wild life…what do I mean by this?
I don’t mean to leave your houses and jobs and go and live in the bushes. (You can if you wish)
Living a wild life is living the Soul’s destiny.
In your Soul’s destiny you listen to your OWN NATURE.
Your spirit and physical Nature. They are both in balance!
Your spirit Nature follows the source within and responds to the dreams you have. You act upon your desires, because you know your desires are in alignment with God’s desires. You ride with God side by side. You listen to the authority within and follow that inner WILD LIFE.
You know that your physical appearance is a reflection of your Soul within and only acceptance and love for your human body is radiating through your very being.

It is when we enter in that space that we are ready to live a wild life!
A life full of joy, happiness, challenges, loss, change, fun, power, courage, pain,…nothing can bring you out of the authority of ‘TO BE’ any more. You stopped judging…it is all part of the wild life you want to live, because you are sick of being cautious, of listening to others…
You follow that dream!

YES!

You are FULLY YOU!

YES!

Oh how funny,
I wrote this before I went to the beach to paint the sunset and there was a woman with a t-shirt, that was interested to buy a painting, that said WILD LIFE.
She was next!

” What about me?”I want some of that love; I am WILD LIFE too.”

Woeha! Don’t you love it! The Universe is great. Life is great! I am wild life! J

Namaste!

A desire for love

It is all interesting, lately. I feel so great within myself as if I need nothing outside of me to fill me up.

MMM, did I finally reach the point where I really love myself?
It is strange, but at the same moment I see myself crying. And the crying doesn’t come from my life.
I am ok now. It comes from the WILD LIFE. Isn’t that strange…I feel a CRY inside of me, a shout that screams; “ENOUGH!” It is as if the WILD lIFE uses my body and feelings to send out the message!

ENOUGH!

I believe that the dolphins nominated me to be their healer. I say that because whenever I go swimming with them and there is a sick dolphin, he/she or little baby turns around me. I am so honored and sometimes I think, waaw they so trust me. I can’t describe which honoring feeling that gives. My heart is full of joy, tears rolling in my mask of deep gratitude for the task asked from me. I feel so home with the dolphins. I always have, but lately incredible intense encounters happened.
What really happened lately is that they so trust me, they let me in the pod and it is as if they tell me; “You are one of us. We know you. We can trust you. You understand us.”

It happens that I bumped into them and they always help me get into the pod and it is so easy to be with them. I don’t even have to do effort or swim. It is indescribable.

The other day I was swimming with them and a big boat passed us. The boat divided the group in two.
 It was as the dolphins got disturbed. Normally they love boats, but this boat was old, rusty and the energy of it was threatening. At the same moment the wind picked up and it was as if we were in a storm.

I was the only human dolphin in the water with them. I lost them and was all by myself, now in the windy waves. It was a little scary, especially because that boat was still there.

Anyway 3 dolphins came and got me, and started playing with me as if they were telling;”Don’t be afraid, it is only a little wind!” they came very close and even let me swim between them.

It means something if two partner dolphins take me between them. And then they were so kind to watch their pace and to led me back to the pod. Can you imagine what that does? I am so in awe.
 So in awe. I feel the wild life is approaching me, to bring a message.

Then yesterday a mom and baby came turning around me, with a third dolphin. The mom had a shark bite at her fin. Not so bad as Loesjes (my dolphin buddy) and the baby had a skin infection and had a sucking fish on him. In the past I thought that those fish were symbiotic and helped the dolphin to eat the bad stuff from the skin. But this time I felt, that the animal was causing pain to the baby. The baby came really close to me and turned around and around me. I was giving it reiki energy and was SEEING the sucker fall of the skin. I was envisioning the wound healed, and I was just singing for them. They stayed with me and absorbed the attention.

It made me wonder….so..I might not have told the story of loesje, but that will come soon.
So I was wondering, you know my whole life I have fought with myself and the feeling I have about me being worthless. That story just didn’t fit anymore with dolphins trusting me, as they do right now. It is as if they want to let me know that my thoughts were kind of stupid. That is the feeling I get, when I listen to them.
I know that the thought of worthlessness is still in me a bit, and then I think;
 “Who am i? How can I help?”

And the message came that my worthlessness feelings of the past can turn in a positive aspect that is so required to talk with WILD LIFE. I am humble.
I felt deep inside that that was what the dolphins, like about me.
I am truth, not fancy, just who I am. Very sensitive, but humble.
And they know I love them, adore them and they feel it.
I listen to them and give their freedom and space. I will never ever invade them and they know that.
And that is exactly what they want you to know: humans have invaded to to much!
It is time to turn 180 degrees the other way around.

It is time for healing and reconciliation!
And the healing has to come from the humans!

So what is healing?

Did I heal the little dolphin?

Maybe…

Once on Big Island I was swimming in kaleakakekua Bay and I was in the water with a friend, who was used to swim 20 years with dolphins. He knew them all. Another friend of us had told us that there was a sick baby in the bay. Will and I swam in the middle of the bay and yes there was the baby and its mom. The baby was totally pink and looked very sick. Intuitively I put my hands and was just sending energy.
Will was behind me , just watching what I was doing. The mom dolphin, left her baby with me, and swam off and started spinning in the bay 20 meters away from us. Then she came back and picked up her baby and left.

Will asked me;”What did you do?”
“I just gave it loving energy”, I answered.
“I never ever saw a mom leaving her baby with a human, taking leaps to the other side of the bay and came back” , he said.
“She was ecstatically happy”, continued will.

The next day we saw the baby grey and healed.

What I want to say is that I experienced that healing energy is LOVE. I see the healing happening and I see it done and healed. At the same moment I am just allowing for grace to run through my body. I am just a vessel for love of the divine. Everybody can do this. When a loved one is sick, and that can be yourself! It can be a plant or an animal, it can be or beloved planet earth…another human being…
see it healed…just let LOVE stream through you and it is DONE!

The dolphins want me to share this with you…

Love love love…you can do anything with love!

It is time..it is time..to change a full circle to the love side and the planet will be restoring itself.
The wild life is asking YOU for LOVE!!!!!
NOW!

Simplify your life and use less recourses…Love love love…that is what love is about.

Love is responsability...

Care for one another!

What about action?

When do you take action and when do you close your eyes, ears and mouth to not see what is going on in the world and with our planet earth?
When are we going to stop zombie state where are in, that brings our planet in a destructive spiral?
When are we going to walk away from ignorance?

I am sorry.I am, right now in the middle of figuring out what to do.
Do I stand on the spot where I take action and fight for a cause?
Is that fighting not an energy that will bring all the contrary to me, then I eventually was envisioning?

Or am I just going to sit down and ohm and think it will just go away?
 I feel am in a dilemma…hmmm

This morning I was running and I had this incredible blissful start of the day. The sky was pink!
How more blissful can it start? Isn’t it?
Then the birds woke up and started singing. Oh my God more bliss on top of the pink!
Then I heard the waves of the Ocean when I was running by…oooh how lucky am I!
Then I passed a plumeria tree and its flagrance just flew into my nose and tickled all my senses inside.

Oh my god, what was I an incredible lucky being!

On top of that God taught me a lesson. By intensely absorbing the color pink, the song of the birds, the soul of the ocean and the aroma of the flower I was giving them ATTENTION.
In the action of receiving I was actually honoring and loving them…I loved that…
So when a person gives you a gift, in the acceptance and receiving of the gift you love him/her.

Ok done with all those stories we tell ourselves it is hard to receive!
You love the other in receiving, because in reality there is no other at all.

When you receive the pink, you receive you
When you receive the song of the bird, you receive you
….
All what IS is LOVE.

There is nothing else…

Hmmmm what a beautiful morning!

Hup to the next chapter of my delicious morning.

I go in my car and drive towards my ocean swim…the adventure of the day!
I just love it. I never know where I end up…how exciting!

Half mile away from home and I have to break hard for a deer on the road. My car slips, but worse the deer falls on the middle of the highway. There is another car coming from the other side and I don’t dare to look.
I look behind me and yes there is a car coming closer.
I choose the deer…breaks down and there we go.
No thoughts. Just action!

Luckily, It gets enough the time to jump up and to run over and be safe…

What a relief!

I just started crying…

It came from deep…
It came from the deer. It came from all the wild animals on the planet. I felt it. Where can it still go? Where can the wild life still go when we build high ways, when we trash our planet?

So here I am again…do I take action or do I close my eyes?

It is just not me to close my eyes…I have a deep need to protect those that can’t protect their selves.
It is something in me that has a strong presence.

In the spiritual community it sounds like I start fighting against and so not being in my peace.
But is it not so that if somebody falls in front of you, you pick them up?

I am still juggling in trying to find my balance of creating my own life and taking action to heal the planet…
thought for more…isn’t it?

How can I sit still if they kill dolphins in Japan f.e? It is on my mind and I hope one day I can contribute in their freedom. Maybe I am doing it right now with just have the energy of love and care for them?

Hmm …and what about action?
What about action?

 Love Rainbow

I choose the swan, because it is like he found the middle between action and creation...he trusts and just takes action, when he feels it. And when he don't, he doesn't. There is no separation anymore between action and creation...

THanks to all my friends!

Love love love them, lololololoLOVE!

The dolphins surprised me yesterday in their warm embrace. I believe I was never as close as this time. They even let me swim between a pair over and over again.the little baby played with me and made a spin just next to me. For about an hour they warned me out…am so happy…I love them so much… It was magic…Soon I will take my bags and move to Dolphinville, I found my true family! Love love love them and they know it!

This is a new painting!

Love Rainbow

What a marvelous day!

Today I had a marvelous day. I taught again after a period of inactivity in my teachings and I had the honor to ‘entertain’ Alan Cohen’s class. Thank you Alan and Dee to trust my teachings, art and gifts to share with your group! It was awesome. It was a long day with lots of readings and I am going to retire for the evening. They want me back tomorrow, so I want to be ALIVE and KICKING!

Now I am going to rest,

This is a new painting,
Honu (turtle in Hawaiian) saw about 8 or 9 this morning on my morningswim. Dolphins and whales in the distance. What a wonderful life!

Enjoy,

tamara

My paintings are for sale on www.rainbowsheart.com,

Today 2/21/2012 was a day full of GRACE

My beloved Maui…

Hmmm I really feel I truly came home in Maui. Sorry for the Belgian friends and family, but I feel more and more Mauian then a Belgian. I speak more English then Dutch (almost none, foei!)…but it is a deeper feeling. Today I really had that deep feeling of not having to go anywhere. I feel so home. But as we always say, it is when we feel home within ourselves that we will feel home anywhere.

So I feel that my inside is really coming home to who I really am, and then the outside naturally melts in that Natural PEACE-full state of bliss.

There is something with me and Maui. There is a deep love affair. I especially love the south part of the Island and when I came back here I found more of myself back…isn’t it strange that our Soul is connected to the Soul of a certain place, country,….listen to the AINA (land)..it has something to say about your Soul…listen…

It is here where I can dive in the turquoise waters of the Mother, easily and effortless. It is as if my skin, my body needs the water every day. I feel so good in the Ocean. I am a little dolphin. Maui waters.

This morning I had one of the most blissful mornings ever.
Sometimes meetings happen in a mysterious miraculous and graceful way. This morning I bumped into a man that was ready to go in the water. He had his hair up as my friend Aaron, I felt immediately secure and safe with this man; just because he reminded me to my friend. ( I believe that this was a deep inner sign of saying something was happening) I could truly feel there was something we needed to do. The man stepped away and said he was going for a swim. And I felt to just jump in the Ocean and go too.
I went in at the far end, and started swimming. He went in somewhere else.

We bumped into each other again in the middle of the ocean.
He asked me; ”Where do you live?”
I responded:”South Kihei, and you?”
“Everywhere”, he responded. He was living in his car.
I know what that means. I am kind of a nomad. I lived for a long time on suitcases and my car.
I showered on the beach and everything I needed was in my car.

I immediately had the thought;”This man is a free spirit!”
I associated living in a car with being free in the spirit.
It was later that I saw that I had made an equation that was based on my own limited belief systems.

I FELT FREER than ever before, freer then when I was living in my car!
Being a free spirit had nothing to do, with any circumstances you are in.
But more with how you think and how you let your Self follow your inner Soul.
How free can you let your Self be?
How free?

Do you think limitless?
Do you think everything is possible?

Can you let your Self live the life you REALLY want?

Or are you living a life with ‘I have to’s’ or “I can’t’s”?
Life is too precious and too short to COMPRIMIZE your inner freedom.
With Inner freedom I mean this:

If you feel to move to the other side of the world, don’t only think of it but do it!
Trust that that feeling is your inner guidance!
You want to start a new business, DO IT!
ACT UPON YOUR INNER GUIDANCE>>>>>>

The man was swimming with me and we went pretty far. Suddenly I could hear dolphins. But the waves were high and choppy. He decided to leave and swim back to shore.

I didn’t, I felt them. My brothers and sisters… I couldn’t leave.

Suddenly a dark cloud came behind Haleakala and you could see the rain fall.
A DUBBEL rainbow appeared in front of my eyes. I was hanging in the middle of the ocean with this magnificent dubbel FULL rainbow.
In my imagination, in my desire I saw the dolphins in the middle of the Rainbow, coming through the portal swimming towards me…
I dove under and sang again…
NAIA>>>NAIA>>>
2 minutes later they were turning around me, they had heard my singing…

I was so so happy..i was excited and my excitement was touching them; I could see it.
Oh thank you God… what a magic life I can live!

Thank you Maui!

Thank you me for following my guidance and move to Maui.
I tell you it was not always easy, but that was because I didn’t know yet that there is only ONE world and it is inside of me! I could have been happy 20 years ago, if I knew that already back then…
Happy world inside is a happy world outside…

When I came to shore..

I bumped into the man again…

TO BE CONTINUED…

I answered some questions about my soulpaintings

I made a Soulpainting for somebody and they are going to write a blog about it.
Here are the questions she asked. I loved it. Never thought this way. Thank you!!
(This soulpainting above is from a Soul when i met him in Belgium)

1)To make a soulpainting, do you use art first or spiritual awareness?
Do you have an art portal to Spirit?
2) When you do spirit paintings (Soulpaintings) do you see things first and then paint them. Or vice versa?
What is the biggest thing that surprises you when you make a soulpainting?
3)How do you do the reading that goes with it? Is it from certain spirits? How does it happen?
4)Why do you feel you have that ability? Do we all have that ability? Did we forget it for a while and are we remembering again? Did they have this ability in ancient times?

Here is my answer, as best as I felt to answer. Maybe not in in the right order..but maybe in the RIGHT order. LOL

Please feel free to always contact me with questions ,www.rainbowsheart.com

This process is not something that I invented; it all happened to me in 2005. I am painting since I am a little girl and just before 2005 I had written my fist children's book and was making a lot of paintings, writing poems etc... But in 2005 the libraries and schools in Belgium started ordering my workshops for children. There things started happening with the children. The teachers gave me feedback that the way I was giving my workshop was with a deep and profound method. To be honest I didn't know what they were talking about. But to give you a few examples: A girl that didn’t talk to her teacher for about 6 months started talking to me.
A girl that never painted feet in her life (she was 5) painted feet,….

The way teachers were approaching me, was  in a way life changing for me and for them.
It just all happened. I never wanted to teach really. The Universe tricked me into it.
I said 3 times no to the first library that asked me for a workshop. And then I heard myself saying, it might not be so bad. I showed up that one time and it was the start of many times.
One library talked to the other and they started ordering me.

It made me see and feel that my first children’s book and especially the teachings behind it are the core of all my work. I work from the Soul. And teach the children the ability to live from their SOUL.
Not long after I was giving workshops for children two of my friends organized a workshop for adults. It all happened as a joke. I arrived and there were 10 adults, 8 I never saw before in my life. That day I had an opening I think. I started with meditation and then they would paint from their intuition. They were done to early and I grabbed one painting from a woman I never saw before in my life. Parentally I was right on and I read all paintings of all people in the room until 1am in the morning. It was a revelation for me. Everybody was astonished that it was so right on.

The soulpainting itself I didn’t invent too. Also somebody asked me to make her soulpainting and to write something about it. That is how that started.

I also make Intentional paintings for people who are ill, or other causes they ask me for.

The Soulpainting for whatever core reason it is made, is a painting to hold the energy for the person or the cause to come all what they can be. The reading is not really necessary to make it happen, but because we are in earth school  (and living on earth is living in duality); I show the person with the reading the illusion that keeps them from being that SOUL-being.

What happens first the art or the thoughts?
It happens simultaneously.
I ask for a full name and a picture to just connect with your energy. When that happens I already soar in your energy. I feel different. I feel like you. I get images at the right side of my head. Then I start the painting, during the painting I will get more images and more and more…
You ask if my art is the portal to spirit.
I don’t think so, it is my medium, but spirit is there all the time; when I eat, sleep, walk, swim,… I AM SPIRIT that paints.

I get downloads without art, it is just the talent I got to bring it down. I don’t need the art to do my work. It is just a fun way to do. What I do hear is that it is a very powerful manifestation tool.

What surprises me the most is when I write the reading, that I don’t really remember anymore what I wrote. It just rushes through me. The painting is even easier. Nothing really surprises me anymore.

I can’t really say from where this gift comes.

What I do know is that I am a messenger for this world. And the message I have to bring is that we are One Soul.
I am connected with my core /Soul and connect with God’s core and then the person’s core and there is where all information comes from. Angels and other spirits are connected to the core of God, because we are all one. So it comes from everywhere. All is open! I just don’t identify anymore what or who gives me information. My soulpaintings is letting go of identity really and becoming Soul-being. A soul doesn’t live in duality, it is one with God’s core.

So what I get is the Oneness of the Soul.

The pain and suffering we sometimes feel is when we THINK we are separated.
A woman who had cancer once told me, while I was reading and explaining her Soulpainting.
“You are a healer of the Soul.” And I think I am. It is deep within me that I feel that mission to bring all Souls in oneness and then I mean all Souls, not only the ones on earth. No limitation, all worlds are open!

I believe we are all equal and that is what my last book is about. I am still writing it. But it is very clear:” How to follow your inner guidance?” yes I believe everybody is equal and Unique in the same time and everybody has the same abilities in their own uniqueness.

 I hope this answered some questions….

Love Tamara

Little baby honu, a new painting

I was lifted UP by a drunken angel tonight

Tonight at the beach I was watching the gorgeous sunset. The last 3 days the Maui sky is in fire. Since 3 days the sky turns orange! I was so excited; I was taking pictures and kind of blocked my phone because of it.  My phone gave me the message that my memory card was full. The problem was that I can’t get the program open to delete some. It annoyed me a little. I started deleting contacts that were listed, it was bizarre to see that some names didn’t ring a bell anymore. There were people in there that I didn’t recognize anymore.
I listened to my mailbox and parentally still had saved messages of over a year old.
Oh my God! It was symbolic to me I was still carrying the past with me. Since two days I was dealing with past memories.
 I try to always see the positive in any given situation. I believe that every situation is there to support us. So thank you phone to make me aware!
I cleaned my phone of necessary past memories!!! (Memory is full)
Still not enough I think, because the memory card is still full…but anyway that was a lesson in itself.

I stayed at the sunset for about an hour. I enjoyed it until the last minute and was sitting on a rock close to Kalama park. I was enjoying the music in the background of the Whale festival.
While I was deleting my ‘overload’ on my phone (the symbolic backpack with old stones in it) 3 drunks were walking around me. I didn’t feel threatened; I was just watching the sky change from full orange to brown orange. It was getting darker. Venus was standing in her full presence already and was followed by Jupiter in all its glory.

The woman started shooting to somebody behind me and used the famous F word almost 4 times in one sentence. And she spoke about 5 sentences, so that were a lot of F words. I still didn’t feel any treat. I was just watching the change of colors, the music, the breeze, the stone where I was sitting on,…and my phone that I was cleansing and cleaning of old stories.
So one drunk left ( we don’t have many drunks in Maui, this is rare this happens!), and one lie himself on the ground. 5 Minutes later I hear him snore. It sounded like an airplane that is starting to take off.
The woman with the F words, was cleaning her trash. What really amazed and greatly surprised me. She could hardly walk straight, but she still was cleaning behind herself, that was nice!
I didn’t feel unsafe at all, but did keep my little wall up…you never know.

She poked the snoring guy to see if he would get up, but now he was far far away….Grool groll…

I was still dealing with my phone, while she parentally was ready to go home. (I hope so she was getting that way)

 She looked at me…

me still gazing to the beautiful orange brownish sky…and says; “Aloha, good night!”
I replied; “Good night!”
And she asked;”Are you ok?”

Here I am sitting, a little cautious because she is drunk, and she asks me if I was ok.

I answered, “Yes, thank you.”

But it really touched my heart, that she had the thought to ask me if I was ok. While I maybe should have asked her if she was ok! But no she asked me!
And you know, I needed this today.
I was so uplifted by this drunken woman asking me if I was ok.
It felt so loving to ask me.
I had two days of ‘cleansing’ difficult past memories and this question of her helped me so much!

It helped me to be OK!!!!
It taught me, several things.
One in my mind I was lightly judging them in the sense that I thought that her being drunk was NOT ok. (Hilarious that she then asks if I am OK…haha)
Second: God is everywhere and in everyone. In each moment help can appear, be open to it.
Three: the parentally sane person ( me because I was not drunk) was maybe less ok then the drunk woman. I was ‘intoxicated’ by past memories and so I was maybe more drunk, then she was. J
Four: it taught me, that we can uplift another with a simple small jester.

ARE YOU OK?

That was it. She lifted me up. She was my angel tonight.
A drunken angel that was shouting the F word.

Haleluya…Love is everywhere…

Things that happen around you…
Let’s take the example of my phone. It is always a reflection of what is happening inside. Change the inside and your outside movie will change.
I got the message of my dear phone...thank you phone!

I should give it a name :)

Love Tamara

Honu, our beloved elder

This is a new painting.

Honu and the light.

Last time I went to the aquarium was about a week ago. This is a place in Maui, where you have to swim far out. It is gorgeous there, It is a different world. It is a world of illumination and peace. It is a wonderland with all beautiful fish and coral. When the light shines in, it is as if you are in Paradise under water.
My friends and I noticed that wounded and dying turtles come there, to die or heal. It feels as an elephant’s graveyard in that way. We can think this is sad, but it is in fact not sad at all. It cannot be better to soar to another dimension in time and space and to return to the source, safe away from sharks, in this wonderful place between the Maui lava.

Talking about sharks…last week there was a turtle with a really bad wounded fin. It was really ugly. The upper part and lower part were hanging on each other with a smaller piece. The turtle was a huge grandfather. You could see he was in pain and I couldn’t leave before I gave him healing energy.

You might think and I had that thought too, that it would be impossible for the wound to heal.
In a logical mind it can’t heal and the logical mind would just think it will fall off. That is the world of the logical mind. But luckily we also have the world of the right brain and the creative mind where everything is possible.

This creative expanded mind goes beyond earthy limitations.
When I enter this part of my brain, that is where all my paintings come from, I know everything is possible. Any disease can be healed in NO time, because time does not exist in this part of the brain.
Here is the place where you don’t even have to believe anything anymore, but where you surrender to the light. It is the place of infinite possibilities.

This part of my brain I use to heal and to do my soulpaintings.

I did once a Soulpainting and reading for a Japanese woman who had cancer and she told me; “Rainbow, you might not be able to heal my body anymore, but today you healed my Soul. You are a healer of the Soul.”

That day I was gifted by this Japanese woman with a great honor. I was so surprised she thought that and with deep humility I accepted her deep respect. This woman changed my life! And possible she healed my Soul!

Since that day, when I see an animal or a human in pain, I am like a knight ready to do my job.
Most of the time, I will approach it and ask permission and then ask God to work through me, to heal or to take the pain away.

I truly believe that the Japanese woman was right, that when you open yourself to be a vessel for healing you heal the soul of another, yourself and God.
So wherever you are…When you see a homeless person, a sick child, a wounded animal ask God/ the Universe to work through you to send light. Be a miracle for the other You.

I ask you to help me to see this beautiful grandfather HONU healed, see his left fin whole and in one piece, see him soaring in the wide turquoise waters. See him soaring in the light and his soul carried in peace and harmony wherever he goes next. It will be, what it has to be…that is between God and Honu himself.
But it can always happen with united hearts…

Tamara

The whale soup

This is a new painting..we are smak in the middle of whale season...awesome  to have all this 'little' baby whales here...sometimes when I swim I bump into one. And the other day I did with my friend J.

The baby was so small as we are and the mama was holding it up with her fin. Another whale was silently moving behind them. We think we must have swim in the placenta… that is our story, because the baby was unusual small. We love our story.

What if it was only an hour born or so…oooh it was so cute.
They sing and you can hear them far away when you dive one foot under water. Sometimes you don’t even have to dive one foot under and you hear them. But sometimes they are intensely SILENT, before you know it they pass you…gracefully peacefully immensely..and you are just in awe…
I had some sharks pass me gracefully peacefully immensely too…but that happens luckily not often. (only 3 times since I am here)
Please God let the whales and dolphins just pass me, the sharks can gracefully peacefully and immensely be with themselves..:)

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Rocky, my hero

How cars talk to us….

It is an amazing trip when you start realizing that you have a relationship with your car. I always have loved all the cars I had, for me it stands for my freedom. For every other person, it will symbolize something different. For me it is freedom.

It is already for a long time I listen to my car. When it has something… just as I listen to my body when it has something…I know, I know it is kind of rude to compare a car with our body. But both ‘bodies’ have some similarities.
The wheels could be our legs, the engine our hearts, the oil our blood,..go on and on..the exhaustion pipe or….
Anyway I have experienced that if my car breaks down with a certain piece, it is in connection with me.
Don’t underestimate your car!

My car is called Rocky. He..yes it is a he is so a strong rock, he brings me everywhere and is so trust worthy. He reacts on what is going ‘wrong’ in my energy field..Hilarious, right?

Three months ago the life I had ended, I was staying with friends and deep inside I was sad and in pain.
I knew I had to step into my new life, but I was holding it off …and off…and off…one week, two weeks…until Rocky’s starter gave up. I was stuck on the Baldwin beach and had to ask two huge tourists to push Rocky so I could kick start it. I knew immediately what was going on and decided to move on. When the decision was made, the two tourists showed up, a friend called and gave me a really awesome mechanic who fixed Rocky in one two three.(means fast in Belgium) Synchronicities happened and before I knew it Rocky had a new starter, I had a new apartment , new friends and a new life.

So I listen better to Rocky..my buddy.

It was a week ago that I had some emotional lows and highs. I lost my power a little and was trying to stay in my center, which took me some days. You know, sometimes we have that with certain relationships. It are the treasures of growth.

The days I was out of balance Rocky started idling from very highs to extremely lows. He bailed out twice on me (So I did on myself) and shut out, the engine everything completely gone. I had to restart. It was amazing to see..I remembered that he did the same in Honolulu two years ago, when I was in a same kind of ‘emotional off’ state.
Anyway to make sure...I called the mechanic to have a check up for Rocky.
I swear, the moment I took my power back, I felt a shift in Rocky. It felt as if the problems were gone.
 I was thinking of calling the mechanic off, but for sure I went up country to have Rocky examined.
Nothing! We couldn’t find anything anymore. Waaw what luck! I asked the mechanic my debt and he answered; ”A hug.”

I knew deep inside, a shift happened within me and instantly it happened outside of me.
This sounds weird. But love your car, it feels you….Wash it as you wash you. Talk to it with sweet energy, it brings you everywhere. When it bails out of you, look inside of you. Maybe it is time for another car.
Maybe not.

I see it a little as R2D2 and C-3PO from star wars.

I came to experience that whatever we use in the outside to serve us, is really serving us…it all has a Soul…it is all God. It is all energy. Your house, your car, your bike,…

I love my Rocky! (nothing to do with the movie, but all with the real ROCK, mother Earth)
What is in your world serving and loving you…it is all a dream, what did you dream and create?

Even the cockatiels love Rocky and flow on it again today, just as like week. (see post last week)

Robin, the gecko plays the fool!

 

Did you ever feel there was something greater then you that took you up, carried you and softly put you in another place, other environment,…in another life?
As a wave comes under you and carries you to an unknown place. Is that not what we all fear?
The unknown?

This story of a gecko reminds me of my own story.
Last week I took the recycling bins to the container park. I placed them in the back of my car and hup there I went. It always gives me so a good feeling to do. Less trash around, here in Maui they still burry the garbage in the ground, but I am not complaining… What is better, putting it in the ground or burn it? I don’t know. The best is to not have any! And I am trying to have as less as I can.
My diving mask is getting old, but I try to use it as long as I can, because I just have that image of a plastic mask buried in Mother earth…A horrible feeling!
Anyway these are my daily thoughts sometimes. I believe I live simple and not have a lot of stuff. I don’t want to participate on a society that we call in Belgium a waste-society, or throw-away society.

But now back to my gecko story.

Ok so I arrive at the container park and notice that a little beautiful green gecko traveled with me in my recycling bin. He (or she?) wanted to jump out my window…kind of a kamikaze jump, when he/she sees me moving towards him/her…
and...
I in my logical brain…I forbid him/her to jump out!
“This is no place for geckos!” I said.
As I would know, right? Who am I to tell the gecko where it should live? I think it is called being human, or maybe being me. I closed the window and teh gecko went obedient to teh back of the car.
Right? Obedient, ha...
Anyway I was so naïve to think that I would be able to talk to the gecko and tell him/her that when I would come home I would put all the doors and windows open so he/ she could get out.
Which I did, by the way. I told him/ her that it was better for him/ her to be in a Natural environment.
Was I playing God? Was I in gecko's business?

Unfortunately gecko didn't respond to let me know he/ she understood and I lost track of the little gecko. Where was he/she?
Oh my God, now I had a problem, there was a gecko in my car. I was not worried for my car of course, but for the gecko who would not find any food. What would he eat? What would I give it?
There was always water in my car and I had some biscuits, still I hoped he would leave when I opened the doors and windows. I wished i had not put my nose in gecko's business. I felt a little bit 'a lot' of guilt. Or maybe the word responsibility was a better choice.
For days I thought about the gecko. I hope he/ she got out. I hope he/ she is ok.
Two days later I had a meeting with my friend P. I would drive her up to her house in Kula.
When I arrived there I needed to get something out of the back of my car and who was there?
Who was sitting on one of my paintings?
It was Robin, the gecko. (That day it got its name)
I grabbed the painting and there he/she was…Robin, (s)he jumped from the painting, high in the sky as the FOOL (out of the tarot deck)…jumping in nothingness, in the unknown. This time I was satisfied...he/she landed in grass and there was a stone wall close by…
Oh what a relief! (S)He is ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would not be me, if I would not philosophize about this…
What if everything happened in a synchronistic timing and that all events were there to bring Robin to Kula, a wish he had his whole life already? Maybe he never thought about Kula, but about having it cooler?J Maybe I wasn’t playing God, but God’s helper?
I was transferred on such a wave 6 years ago…when I was carried to Hawaii,…when I look back I felt like the gecko felt…disoriented, un-rooted, scared, excited, lonely, strange, happy, sad, joyful,…
Sometimes we are lift up from a source greater than us..and that is what I feel happened to me and Robin…
And here we are!
We JUMPED INTO a NEW LIFE!
With a little help of our friends...which I call it disguised helpers of God/ the Universe. (The wave)
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Where is Robin? Find me than ,if you can!

Support is everywhere...

Sunsets are so difficult to capture, when you don’t have your camera with you. The color change is so fast, that I thought of bringing 3 or 4 canvases and continue each new faze.
I forgot to do that and my sunset has 3 suns in it now. I like to just follow what happens.
It makes me wondering that what we see is really what is REALITY.
As something as reality exists…

Sometimes (often J) I am a wonderer. A seeker.
Hmmm..today I felt really sick…and I was ‘thinking’ and asking myself why I would create a reality of sickness into my field of existence?
Is there such a thing as having total creation and power over your own life? Or are we co-creating and are we dancing a dance of leading and being lead with the BELOVED?

Was I sick because I created it..or was I sick because God created it?

Well, I could see that yesterday I had a deep graving to be alone, I wanted space of just being with myself, I was longing for a ‘cave-feeling’, I was longing for the BELOVED. I guess in this regard, my sickness created just that what I was longing for…

I am hard to keep inside…was first painting the sunset and then walking the sunset…and I had a thought..
What if everything in your life is for your good?

I mean we have all these happy or sad stories. Normally the happy ones are the ones that support us and the unhappy ones that brings us down.

But what if you could have the thought that each story, without weighing what is good or bad is there to SUPPORT you?

That mean that me being sick… was there to support me…woeha…
I went twice in the ocean today to cleanse my body of toxins and a manta ray (which has the symbolism of GRACEFUL STRENGTH) came and helped me with having strength in the moments I thought I didn’t have it any more….

SUPPORT IS EVERYWHERE….

Here the beautiful sunset...the sun shines for every LIVING being Equal!
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Of course you can!

Two angels fell out of the sky

This might be a better picture of my two friends Cucko and Cucka...when we stay humble, little things (well I didn't consider two cockatiels flying on top of my head as little)…but you get what I am saying.
It was not something I was longing for. I didn’t have a desire to fulfill me with an outside force, as a many things are; like money, a house, a car, etc…
It just happened! These two angels choose to fly into my life to enRICH my spirit with joy and happiness.
I still am beaming from their generous visit.
As you see in the picture, they were really very much loving it and me too!!!!!... Thank you Cucko and Cucka!

What a surprise!

Surprises can fall out of the sky. Last week I was standing with my car at the south part of Maui, just observing and absorbing the wide blue turquoise ocean. Suddenly two cockatiels flew out of the sky on top of my car.
They didn’t only fly on top of my car; they wanted to fly in my car. They flow on top of my door and then flew on the ground, bite in my toes and flew on top of my car again, wanting to go in my car. It was so a huge surprise to me. It was a gift. I was so happy that those two LOVE birds were loving me. I enjoyed the warm embrace.
They flew on top of my head!!!!

“Are you guys hungry?” I asked and gave them some delicious sesame crackers. I put it on top of my car and now they embraced the shared love…. in a large breakfast on top of the hood of my car.

After a while they became the middle of the attention and people stopped and watched them, but they didn’t care..it was breakfast time!!!

I called them Cucko and Cucka, my two new friends!

MIND BLOWING

You know how mind BLOWING it is to have an encounter with a whale in the middle of the Ocean?
I am an ocean swimmer and swim sometimes for miles and it happens I bump into wonderful surprises.
One day this mama and baby gave me a moment of a complete out of the ordinary experience. It was EXTRAordinary. It was from another world. I am still trilling on the energy of ecstasy every time I think about it. Every time I go back in the memory I soar in the energy of gentle massive power.
They are so huge and big, but so kind and gentle.
There are no words to describe what happens in a moment as this…I probably will never really know…because I can’t THINK about it…my mind …where is it?
MY HEART IS WIDE OPEN!

Thank you so so much Whales to hold the heart energy of this planet. We need it more than ever.
Thank you so much to give birth to your babies in Maui!!!

Let’s tune in to these genius animals and OPEN OUR HEARTS!

The birth of a painting

Starting a new painting, view on my facebook page how it changes

A delicious day!

What a delicious day today!
We kayaked on the beautiful Maui waters...Rainbows, sun, water, WHALES, the full moon...friends...blessings showering over my head. Here is a new painting of a baby whale and its mom...they came and said hello today...he was a really newborn, so small and cute...

A love letter to my friends

A love letter to my friends

I want to share what I feel…
I see so much your beauty in and and out, your honesty and HEART.
I see the beautiful strong wild woman/man, that knows that prosperity and loving care is her birth right. Which I hope I am sharing with you…the loving care...and hope you decide to only accept this in your life from now on...dito for myself. Because I am you and you are me. I see me in you and vice versa. Is this oneness I feel? Or empathy and love?
Or are these all words to describe a feeling that feels good….

It is when you and I will make the choice for the love of ourselves that we can attract what we really are. As long as we attract people outside of us that hurt us, we hurt us.
Going in and giving ourselves the loving care…will show up outside of us.
Miracles happen when you see what I see.
If you could only look for 1 minute through my eyes and see how I see you, you will never feel ‘bad-girl’(bad-boy) again.

I see only beauty…

Beauty…

The beauty of your presence on earth…
The beauty of your fire and excitement and passion for Nature…
The beauty of the creative power of your Soul…
The beauty of your empathy and compassion for all living beings….

Did I tell you already?

You are Sooo beautiful…

This is what I sing for the dolphins, when they hear it they turn themselves in the loving energy…they know …they know…without any doubt..

The TRUTH

They are beautiful….

So are you my friend…
I know the day will come you will have to go,
but in the connection of our Souls and hearts you never go, but always BE.
I will close my eyes and SEE

your BEAUTY.

Your for EVER friend,
tamara

Be in your own world

People can be mean; can say things to hurt another. I saw that today and it hurts. Why does it hurt?
Why would anything hurt outside of me? Why would I bother what they think of me? Why would I bother they don’t want my happiness?
There can only be one way to find out and it is the path inside.
There lies the truth and peacefulness. If you go outside for answers you are doomed to get lost. There is nothing out there, it is all in you.

It is all in me…
Why do I give my AUTHORITY away to gossip and low judgmental energies?

The moment I realize I am doing it, I can go lovingly inside and find where I still…
-hurt myself.
-how I think about myself
-That I don’t want my happiness yet

When I come to terms with these deep questions, I release another energy in the field/ God/ Universe.

What happens outside of us tells us what is going on inside.

It made me sad today. I lost all hope for humanity…no wonder I prefer to disappear as a dolphin in the pod of dolphins. People show there cruel nature sometimes…
Again…where am I showing my cruel Nature? Am I still judgmental….
It is an opportunity of growth.

I feel it very strong in my heart and soul..it is time to love..and to be happy for other peoples happiness.
When I look back to my life, I couldn’t do it neither and maybe I am still challenged in that. But I know deep inside when we can be happy for another, the world is healed..because the other is us, is the world. What you do to your brother and sister, you do to yourself.

I post this painting I made in 1997.It is one of my favorites. It is called.
Life is being, being is life.
The child blows his own unique song into the world and changes everything he touches in laugher and joy. New beginnings…

His world that you see is inside of him/her. There is no world out there. Everything happens inside of him/her. That is where the change starts, nowhere else…
Namaste…
I do my best,

All love to you!
Aloha Friday!